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Fri Sep 30, 2016 10:01 pm
It's funny in a way as i didn't realise how long ago i posted here, it was not long after my 100 days. It's probably near 900 days now as it's 30 months, and i still wonder why i was caught up so much playing the machines and losing my money.
Well i probably can answer one question, i do enjoy playing the games. But now it's on the facebook app, and i just play the online and free pokies on that, and happily turn them off when i get tired of them (or lose all my free tokens). In a way they remain educational to me, because seriously if i played real machines with the same lack of success as i do with the tokens, i'd be equally as badly off as i was when playing them.
It still kind of reminds me of happier times..sometimes i just lose myself in them and think of those halcyon days of '99 and '00....when i'd go to the casino so often. Then reality hits and i realise how foolish i was, to continue to go up there, often even 4-5 times a week, as well as play in my home town at times too. I'd have spent dozens of hours a week playing the machines, and feeding them untold amounts of my money.
The thought now of reaching into my pocket or wallet and putting in even a single dollar now is a ghastly thought, and that's the key for me. To break the nexus of associating playing them with needing money to do so. Now it's free for me, i just log on, get my free coins, build it up over a few days and play for maybe 15-20-30 minutes until they run out or i get sick of them. Not a cent spent, and my wallet and bank balance remains undamaged. Sadly for me i'll never likely recover from spending over $200K on the stupid things before stopping, but can now at least say that the scourge of losing money has gone, and that's something i'll never see myself ever doing again.
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