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Wed Feb 08, 2023 2:29 am
Hi @Pikachu ,
thanks for welcoming me here, this is the first time I have signed up for something like this because I truly feel like I needed to.
Quick introduction is that I have been online gambling since I was probably around 18/19 casually, introduced by friends and of course it was just for fun at the start as it always is. I did so for about 3-4 years and only gambled on major sporting events usually and never went past $100 bets and would stop and never chase as I was quite risk adverse. I am now 25 so it’s been quite a number of years and the world cup was a few months ago and it triggered my gambling habits again, except this was the first time I had access to a lot more cash as I have been working and had saved up around 55k, I have other investments in stocks and crypto and what not but 55k liquidity I had saved up ready to go. anyway so the world cup rolled around and I found myself betting on almost every single game and luckily or maybe unluckily for me I was decently profitable after the event had ended but I proceeded to start betting on other sports and horses and dogs eventually. I went on a few downward spirals where i started with a $50 bet and ended up chasing, with my biggest chase being a $4500 bet on a dog that won. I told myself I would never put myself in that position again. however the last two months I found myself repeating the same pattern where I would start with a small bet and it losing and I would chase and chase. fast forward to two days ago, I had a $200 sports bet on that lost and I had stayed up to watch it until 5am. I was so upset that I ended up chasing and it turned into a $5000 chase bet that lost, resulting in a total loss of $11000, I almost deposited a disgusting amount to chase that loss but somehow I was able to stop myself, mind you this was at 6:30am in the morning and I had not slept, I stopped myself and banned myself from my two most used bookies so I wouldn’t be able to deposit anymore. so I am now here trying to accept and process the loss and truly never put myself in that position again and would love to be gamble free for the rest of my life, or realistically, at least for the foreseeable future, sorry for the long story but I thought it be nice for myself to read this in the future when I am hopefully still gamble free, I have read many stories on this forum which have helped me throughout this 48 hours and I really wish to become a better person and overcome this adversity, because I know I am better than this. Thanks a lot if you made it this far :) I’ll be posting this as a seperate forum post just so it’s easier for me to check in on myself and if anyone leaves comments!
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