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  • Same **** different year

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    Same **** different year

    Sat Aug 27, 2016 11:38 pm

    Constant struggle to stop for a LONG time now. Eventually got the guts to do one on one councelling but it's not working! I feel like she is looking for a cause of the gambling yet cannot find one and dosnt seem to accept the fact that I just LOVE the casino so much. Blew $3500 in a day two weeks before that $1600 4 weeks before that $3500. It's making me depressed I feel like I will end up homeless. I am ok for 2 weeks then feel the urge and while I try to resist for days I cave in eventually. I have done everything from limit having cards etc etc wrote lists of theing to do instead of gamble but the problem is ONCE I GET THE URGES ALL LOGIC GOES OUT THE DOOR. I forget my list, I forget everything and end up gambling. So depressed. :mad:
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    Re: Same **** different year

    Sun Aug 28, 2016 6:27 am

    Popeye gambling is a horrible addictiom and giving up is hard..but it can be done..you have to learn to control those urges anyway you can if you want to successfully give up.Keep going with the counselling and take each day as it comes..
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    Charlotte (facilitator)
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    Re: Same **** different year

    Fri Sep 02, 2016 2:52 pm

    Hi Popeye,

    Welcome to the forum. Good on you for getting support from a counsellor - I agree with Pamela, keep giving it a go as it's a process and can take a while. This is a good space to get extra support and to learn about how other people are managing their gambling and making change. If you have a read through the posts here you will come across a number of strategies that you might try putting in place to prevent you from gambling.

    Does anyone have any ideas for Popeye?

    As Pamela said, it's a horrible addiction and stopping is not easy and brings up frustration. But as they say, don't give up on giving up!

    You can also call Gambler's Helpline if you want to speak to a counsellor: 1800 858 858 (24/7)

    All the best,
    Charlotte :)
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    Senior Member
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    Re: Same **** different year

    Fri Sep 02, 2016 8:18 pm

    G'day Popeye. I really know the feeling about casinos. In my heyday of gambling, when i had taken my package from work in '99 i used to go to Crown numerous times. I'd go there with my own Crown card and that of my brother and two mates. Back then you could rack up 50 points on a card, get a free meal and then back up with $16 of 'free' Crown credits on each one the to be used the next time you visited. That kept me coming back many times, and to be honest they are still probably the times of my life i look back most now and wistfully think how good was that. The allure, the lights, sounds, the stack of $1 coins in the cylinder about 10 feet high being $1M in there, they just played on every sense of hope, excitement, power and even euphoria.

    But, the reality set in. I did managed a couple of wins of over $1000 in those early days, and also a couple of $500 'every hour' jackpots, but even in those heady days i'd lose amounts like $600 or $800 or thereabouts. I'd go in there sometimes at 4.30am, play the pokies using the Crown cards, accumulate the points and therefore be there for the next 'day' at 6am when the $16 would kick in. I'd often stay there all day and not come home till late evening. I'd even stay around long enough to get a sante Brasserie meal or a King's buffet at times. And while i still had of the package money left and then lines of credit left, i was sort of in a strange heaven of gambling.

    But after getting lucky and having my name drawn out of a Birthday Barrel thing where i won $2500 of free play chips, things changed. My visits there became less fruitful, indeed the wins dried right up. Suddenly i'd not get enough credits on the cards to set them up for the $16 credits next time. Then they made you type in pin numbers with the cards, and thus i was down to my own. I would regularly lose, by this stage from '01 onwards my package was gone and i was driving taxis and pizzas to get some money. Crown was certainly winning all the time now, and the excitement and thrall i had enjoyed for a long time became a frustration and a despair.

    In a way Popeye i fine it totally understandable to go to the casino, they are just a pure erotic gambling orgasm in a way, the senses are filled, the excitement levels and adrenaline are off the charts. But for me now, 30 months free of the scourge of monied pokies, they are distant memories, some fond, but also tempered by the reality of the huge debts i am left with and the fact i now need to work 60 hours a week to pay for my follies. I play the Facebook pokie app on my desktop, i get a similar buzz to real machine but now i lose nothing playing them. I know that i simply am no good at pokies, and am a better person i think because of it. Maybe it's because i realised i was a totally useless gambler, and got tired of losing all my money.

    I still think wistfully at times of those heady days, but i taught myself to get angry with the machines as they would take all my money. Not sure of the apps can replicate the excitement you get playing them, but it may be something to help you. But try to just get angry at losing the money you've done, and make it your mission to not feed those troll machines again.
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