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    Suzy2
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    Joined: Sun Nov 27, 2016 9:57 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Fri Jul 07, 2017 6:09 pm

    Go Izzi!
    You are doing so well!
    So happy for you!!

    Suzy2
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    Izzi
    Senior Member
    Posts: 163
    Joined: Fri Feb 19, 2016 10:33 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Sat Jul 08, 2017 7:32 pm

    Urges, urges, urges the temptation has been really strong for two days, I know they will deplete in a day or two just need to be strong. It was only a matter of time before I got hard hit again but I will not go down that road again, I can't.
    And to ease this temptation about to shower and get into my pjs, once I am in my pjs there is no way I will leave the house.

    Today I saw my best friend and gave her a birthday gift, that felt so good. I also bought myself a couple of books and a bit of makeup which I am rapt about, it felt good not having to worry about $$$ because I was on my last dollar or something. Never going back to those crazy days where I was consumed with depression and stress.

    Can someone recommend a good wealth book, interested in learning about how to maximise my money and about investments etc.... there are many educational money books out there, just wondering if anyone from here at read one that really helped them, especially after gambling? I feel like I don't have a grounded view of money because of gambling and how I use to rationalise and justify everything. The way I see money might be totally in fine, for now though, I am not confident enough though to believe that. I wonder if any gambling addict, has ever gone on to write a book (someone who ended up being successful) be good to see how they handled and viewed money after cg.

    Day 50 wahoo that totally encourages me and helps me fight off the cg demon.
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    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1911
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Sun Jul 09, 2017 6:03 pm

    Hi Izzie.keep saying no to those urges.I dont know of any books myself but I am sure someone will.if not try Dr Google..
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    Izzi
    Senior Member
    Posts: 163
    Joined: Fri Feb 19, 2016 10:33 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Tue Jul 11, 2017 8:34 pm

    Thanks Pamela, Dr Google is indeed a good friend.

    Got a text message this morning confirming that BOTH my cash advances are FINALLY paid off! Damn man, one of those cash advances lasted more than 12 months, just imagine how much more I paid in "fees", cg is the worse, it took me over a year to pay off like $600, that is CRAZY AS HECK!

    Now I just have to pay off my MASTER PERSONAL LOAN - only 23,000 more to go LOL - it could be worse though, could still be gambling. Life would be a lot stress free and easier if I did not have to pay a certain chunk every fortnight towards that debt, what is a girl to do though? One bad decision really can ruin your life, or in my case, the next 5-6 years.

    Somehow everything is going to work itself out, as long as I keep above board.

    Day 53 that has to count for something.
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    JinxyWolf
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    Posts: 358
    Joined: Wed Feb 15, 2017 8:51 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Tue Jul 11, 2017 10:30 pm

    Hey Izz,

    Congrats on paying off those cash advances, that's fantastic news and a weight of your shoulders I bet.

    Well Done,

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    pamela
    Senior Member
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    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Wed Jul 12, 2017 10:57 am

    Thats great news Izzie..you have come such a long way and achieved so much in those 53 days..life for you is certainly looking up.
    Pam
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    Izzi
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    Joined: Fri Feb 19, 2016 10:33 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Wed Jul 12, 2017 8:32 pm

    Pamela, indeed it does, when I was in my darkest moments sharing on this forum and feeling total despair getting to today was an illusion, something that would never happen. Yet here I am and I almost can't believe it.
    This transition from cg to no cg has been the easiest emotionally and financially.

    Another day down and I am so excited. I had a spontaneous lunch date with a work colleague, I did not have to think about how much $$ I was spending, although I do everything in moderation, it felt so good. And as I sat their with my friend talking, I did not feel numb inside, I was not paranoid that she would see through me.

    DAMN IT FEELS SO GOOD!!!!
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    blastoise (facilitator)
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    Posts: 222
    Joined: Thu Nov 26, 2015 4:49 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Thu Jul 13, 2017 10:33 am

    Hi Izzi,

    Woohoo! That's great news about the cash advances! Glad to hear you sounding upset and more confident about making this change. Sounds like you are doing things (like a meal etc) without worrying too much about the not having money. I imagine that being able to socialise is an added bonus too! 55 days down??

    Keep up the good work Izzi

    Blastoise
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    Izzi
    Senior Member
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    Joined: Fri Feb 19, 2016 10:33 pm

    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Thu Jul 13, 2017 8:22 pm

    Hello,

    Thank you, thank you - indeed I am! Looking forward towards another dinner social gathering on Saturday, last time I saw my friend, I was numb as I had cg that morning and lost all my money.

    Alas, yes that is correct 55 days - hehe you are keep tracking better than I am.
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    blastoise (facilitator)
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    Re: FEEL SO ILL

    Fri Jul 14, 2017 2:14 pm

    Hahaha I try to keep a track when I can!

    Enjoy your dinner Saturday night Izzi, keep up the good work!

    Cheers,
    Blastoise
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