Quick run down
Mid 30s , female
Sports , pokies , anything really..
Have done this for a while but before kids wasn't such a problem.
Lately it's been taking up every moment of my life.. sneak off here, slap after gym , or whenever I get the time..
Bet online at all hours of the day..
So my point.
I have 2 beautiful kids who are not neglected at all. Always dressed well , fed well, emotionally adored and loved.
Everything comes first then the gambling comes after. I'd rather walk around in 10 year old clothing or my husands clothes or keep using the excuse that I need to loose more weight from my youngest so won't buy any till them.
I'm normally quite vain with my beauty but let it all go for the thrill.
My big rant is. I've come clean. Opened up. But why is everyone so judgemental and taboo. Why is gambling and money such a hard subject for people. It makes me sick.
People automatically shut you out or judge you and want nothing to do with you.
This is the time you need support most , this is the time you want to talk to people ans have people there.
I'm deadset over it. I'm a good person, but I'm over the standards other people have. Like no one is perfect no one. But the bullshit people have put me through is ****.
I know I've hurt people I accept that. I know I am not trustworthy I know I've lied.
But you don't push people out who are willing to change or at the very least try.
Thanks for reading.