Struggles

[Mongoose]

Hi everyone sometimes it can be so hard to stay strong . I went to a show at the casino on the weekend and found myself surrounded by gambling , this is not the first time but my interest in pokies seems to have disappeared but now have a new interest in roulette which is much stronger making me want to gamble again . I don’t think the feeling ever goes completely away it’s just how you manage it
Thank god im seeing my counsellor this week !!!
Mongoose

[gzy3]

Hi @Mongoose
It seems you found yourself having a strong urge for different mode of gambling lately, which you would like to manage well.
Also I learnt from your previous posts that you achieved 14 months gambling free at the end of last year.
It was such a great achievement and made you feel good!
I hope you can continue with it and have a good session with your counsellor this week.

[pamela]

Hey Mongoose..dont give in to these new urges..or your life will rotate in the same direction as the roulette wheel..its really hard to not succumb to the urges but it's worth the effort when you can walk away

[Mongoose]

Thanks guys for your replies seeing things a bit clearer now just need to keep on top of it , watching my friends play the other night was like watching myself over and over again glad I was able to stay strong !!
Sometimes our lives are so full of stress and worry we are looking for that quick escape but it’s not worth it Even if your at 1 day or 1 year it’s not worth going there again
Mongoose

[Mona58]

I hear you there Mongoose.

I had a really hard time late last year.
The thing is being gamble free Is the reality of these stresses and worries have a different perspective. .. so I think. I am learning to not be overwhelmed with worry, my psychologist has taught me that just because l try hard NOT to worry doesn't mean l don't care. I'd thought if I didn't worry it meant I didn't care. And now I'm learning to let go of those worrying things that I have no control over. I feel so much more accepting about those worrying things... as part of life. l guess as time goes by we do get stronger and we may not even realise just how strong we are!

Mona

[BrittV (facilitator)]

Hey Mongoose just checking in, how are things?

[Mongoose]

Why why why
How did I get sucked in again having a rough time lately and tonight gave in to my demons
Bloody online gambling of all things how can I be so stupid !!! 17 months down the drain I can’t believe I can be so stupid

[Ila123]

Hi @Mongoose

I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time. How are you going today?
It is normal to lapse, I understand you might feel disappointed. There's plenty support out there to help you to reach that goal of stop gambling. As a first step , try to think what trigger you to gamble and what could you have done differently next time this urge appears.

[How the F did I get here]

@Mongoose

Hey Mongoose!!!!

Dust yourself off and move on! One slip up in 17 months, seriously I wouldn't even restart your gambling clock. Keep going!

I know you're probably feeling so effing angry at yourself but give yourself some credit 17 months is absolutely amazing.

Get on with smashing it again!!!!
You got this legend!

[BrittV (facilitator)]

Hey @Mongoose so sorry to hear you've had a rough one, but like @How the F did I get here said, you should be really proud of getting here!
Keep moving forward, we're all in your corner and know how great you are!!