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    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: Broken

    Sat Dec 29, 2018 4:36 pm

    Wow I was close to gambling today, out with a friend and they like the club. I suggested we go for a drink thinking I could just do that , luckily they didn't want to and so we went shoe shopping instead .Im so grateful right now that we didn't go and that my urge settle down. I remind myself that these urges are so strong and powerful but I can beat them.
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    clearthatmind
    Member
    Posts: 35
    Joined: Sun Dec 30, 2018 11:26 am

    Re: Broken

    Sun Dec 30, 2018 8:05 pm

    I have to say my heart is touched by your experiences Pea Pod. I think my pokie addiction, as well as greyhounds, pontoon and sports betting went for around 25-30 years. I am now 50. I feel so bloody old being 50. Just where did those years go? I want to help you Pea pod, but in order for me to do that, I need to fix myself. Let me explain. to make a long story short I started off punting on the greyhounds and horses at around 18 and then I was introduced to casino gambling and got hooked around the age of 23-24. I have been on and off the horse regularly for 25-30 years but mostly off that beautiful horse. You know, for some time since an early age, I believed in a creator or higher power. It was a pretty vague belief but it was there anyway. In 2009; this was about 7-8 months after my father committed suicide. I received a knock on the door from Jehovah's Witnesses. Two lovely ladies, and we discussed a few spiritual things, as well as my father's suicide. I decided on a bible study with a brother (spiritual) a few months after this and for about 6-7 years of going to meetings and studying the bible, getting on and off the horse, my love for God surpassed my addiction and I got on that horse around March 2015. I got baptised as one of Jehovah's Witnesses in September 2016. I went 3 years without punting. I made a comeback in March 2018 because my distorted thought process and desire became fertile. I wanted my old friend back, and man! has he proved to be an arsehole. I have not associated with my former Jehovah's Witness friends and this is not because of my gambling. This is because of false doctrinal beliefs (of the Governing Body of JW's ) which I had a problem with. I could no longer go to meetings and go out preaching. My conscience wouldn't allow it. Anyway, since leaving the congregation, I have struggled with that bloody old insidious ******* friend 'the punt". I am still a spiritual person and I have wrestled with my gambling since March. It can be very hard indeed but keep having a crack at the good life. I don't know if you have any interest in God or the bible but believe me, it worked for me and it still does, although I have a sore neck from falling off the horse. The bible has helped millions if not billions of people. Some of those are former gambling addicts. I know, I've met them. What have you got to lose?
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    Trust in Jehovah with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding. In all your ways take notice of him, and he will make your paths straight...Proverbs 3:5, 6
    Cazza
    Senior Member
    Posts: 261
    Joined: Sat Apr 07, 2018 7:23 am

    Re: Broken

    Mon Dec 31, 2018 12:19 pm

    Hi peapod how are you going today?
    I have on the last day of the year just changed all my banking around. No redraw on the mortgage. No credit card and limited daily redraw.
    Have you looked into using a different bank. I think ING has accounts where once you transfer in money it is 24 hours before you can access it again. This might help with the "i need to leave the house right away i feel lucky " urges.
    You also need to start telling your gambling brain to bugger off for a bit. Normal brain would have known that going for a drink with friends would not have ended there. Keep fighting
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    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: Broken

    Tue Jan 01, 2019 6:39 pm

    2019 I welcome you and today starts a new journey of freedom. Good luck everyone
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    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1819
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: Broken

    Thu Jan 03, 2019 9:39 am

    Good luck to you too..may your year be gamble free
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    macpherson
    Junior Member
    Posts: 4
    Joined: Thu Jan 03, 2019 9:39 am

    Re: Broken

    Thu Jan 03, 2019 10:01 am

    I read you opening email and immediately went "that is me!"
    Everything you wrote...I knew....I have done
    I appreciate your honesty... it is something I have to do for myself now.
    Thank you for sharing...hope we can continue doing well
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    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: Broken

    Sat Jan 05, 2019 1:02 pm

    7 days without gambling. Going to keep my post short. Been walking daily , focusing on the negative side of gambling, look at other people who don't gamble and I want to be the same, acknowledging just how much a dollar is worth and refusing to blow it, using 2019 as an inspiration no to gamble new year new choices, using mindfulness.
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    Ange2019
    Junior Member
    Posts: 2
    Joined: Thu Jan 10, 2019 11:38 am

    Re: Broken

    Thu Jan 10, 2019 11:48 am

    Hi Peapod. I today have made the decision to seek help. Last night I put all our pay through the machines thinking I would win. I have left us with $30 for a week.

    This morning I had to tell my husband what I have done. Understandably he is furious and asking why. I don't know why. I don't understand anything about this poxy addiction. But I have today taken steps to get help. I have an appointment with my doctor next week for a mental health plan to assist. I have told my husband that he needs to take full control of our money. I am also going to talk to our local club and get them to block me.

    I wish you and all of us the very best going forward and upwards.

    Ange
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    TimTam
    Senior Member
    Posts: 129
    Joined: Thu Oct 11, 2018 10:13 am

    Re: Broken

    Thu Jan 10, 2019 12:50 pm

    Hi @Ange2019

    Well done on deciding to overcome this! Its great you have talked to your doctor about this... I'm wondering though whether you would be interested in specific gambling counselling? We can link you in with a trained counsellor who specialises in this field. We can also link you in with a financial counsellor if you feel you need assistance managing your finances. all of this is free of charge too.

    Kind Regards,

    Tim Tam
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    Ange2019
    Junior Member
    Posts: 2
    Joined: Thu Jan 10, 2019 11:38 am

    Re: Broken

    Thu Jan 10, 2019 6:49 pm

    Hi Tim Tam

    I think speaking with a specific counsellor would be of a great benefit. Thank you.

    Ange
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