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  • Facing the final Demon.

    For people making and maintaining change in their gambling. Connect, ask questions, offer advice, and share your story in here. If you are new to the site drop in and say hello!
    Calvin (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 333
    Joined: Tue Mar 27, 2018 4:01 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Fri Jan 04, 2019 11:10 am

    Love the determination and motivation @Murphy
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    Murphy
    Junior Member
    Posts: 12
    Joined: Thu Apr 09, 2015 3:54 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Fri Jan 11, 2019 8:03 am

    Hey all just checking in - 3 weeks today. I am feeling good. Historically the next 3-6 weeks are where I get a false sense of security and slip up. My goal is to make 2019 entirely gamble free and then build from there. So far so good!
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    Murphy
    Junior Member
    Posts: 12
    Joined: Thu Apr 09, 2015 3:54 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Wed Feb 06, 2019 2:18 pm

    48 days today, this is where typically it gets risky. But I’m feeling strong!
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    How the F did I get here
    Senior Member
    Posts: 263
    Joined: Sun Apr 08, 2018 11:05 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Wed Feb 06, 2019 10:12 pm

    Good on you Murphy!!! Doing well!
    Keep it up, stay focused on achieving a gamble free 2019.
    I'm 33 today and also determined for 2019 gamble free.
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    TimTam
    Member
    Posts: 88
    Joined: Thu Oct 11, 2018 9:13 am

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Thu Feb 07, 2019 9:03 am

    Doing great everyone!!! Stay motivated, you got this!
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    Murphy
    Junior Member
    Posts: 12
    Joined: Thu Apr 09, 2015 3:54 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Thu May 30, 2019 1:55 pm

    Hi guys,

    Same story, I made 4 months and was feeling strong, saving money and everything was well. We went on a cruise and we said we would gamble $100 well that $100 won me $1500 and the urges started, a month later I’ve relapsed and lost over $5000.

    I got the flu on the boat and this stopped my training for ironman which is my saving grace as it keeps me busy and not gambling...

    I have had to get a loan to cover the losses to avoid telling my parents and partner. I plan on attending a meeting for the first time

    Feeling like I’m at rock bottom
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    Mona58
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1045
    Joined: Sun Oct 15, 2017 11:44 am

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Thu May 30, 2019 9:21 pm

    It is a tough road...

    can only pick yourself up and start again. Need to always remember where gambling leads us.

    All the best on your journey.

    Stay strong

    Mona
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    A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.~Confucius
    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1709
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Fri May 31, 2019 1:14 am

    It is a difficult road you travel but like all of us you know the consequences of your decision to gamble.
    You can make the choice as you have before.
    Don't carry cash or cards with you..or give them to your partner..and this would not be a sign of weakness,more a sign of determination to stop.
    You stopped your drug use,so you can do this too
    Change your playground..
    Good luck
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    Chunkyquitter
    Member
    Posts: 65
    Joined: Mon Dec 12, 2016 10:34 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Fri May 31, 2019 7:43 pm

    How you going? Have you still been off it?
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    Calvin (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 333
    Joined: Tue Mar 27, 2018 4:01 pm

    Re: Facing the final Demon.

    Sat Jun 01, 2019 8:09 pm

    Hi @Murphy

    4 months is a great achievement. Having slip ups here and there are more common than you think. Its just a matter of focusing in on triggers once again and allowing time to think about how you would go about reacting /responding to these triggers without giving in to that impulse. This can be a difficult task but is definitely achievable. After all, you went gambling free for 4 months so this shows you are capable.

    Have you considered attending some counselling with a counselor who specializes in gambling issues?
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