The gambling beast just grew stronger

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Re: The gambling beast just grew stronger

Postby JinxyWolf » Wed Jun 27, 2018 8:56 pm

Heyo 1973 and Welcome,

I am not going to address you as loser because I don't think that's what you are. I know in a gambling sense we are all losers but as a person you certainly aren't. To take the step and come on here admitting that you've lost control and need help makes you a winner and a very courageous, strong person.

My councellor told me that it can take 6 months for your brain to begin to rewire itself. Think about it, we have gambled for years, repeating the same behaviour over and over again, our brains have become dependent on this behaviour, so it' no wonder that it can take that long for our brains to start to get back to normal. I know it feels like the demon has gotten stronger but you can do this, this is not the end of the journey, just a bump in the road.

If you find yourself wanting to gamble, even outside I venue, STOP what you are doing, THINK about what the real consequences of having that bet will be, be HONEST with yourself about WHY you want to gamble, CALL gamblers help if you need to. Remember, urges pass and tomorrow is a new day.

The 100 day challenge is a great tool but in my experience it just wasn't enough. I found myself so focused on getting to day 100 I forgot to really look at the reasons why I was gambling. Don't get me wrong, I still counted the days but I put most of my focus on the Why's of my gambling and I found that more helpful than simply just counting days.

Stay strong and we are here to support you.

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Re: The gambling beast just grew stronger

Postby How the F did I get here » Wed Jun 27, 2018 8:43 pm

7 days is fantastic! That is a small but significant milestone in my eyes.
Keep up the good work. Sucks you cant see the councillor for a bit. Have you thought about meetings in the mean time until you can see your councillor if thats preferable to you.

I can relate to a lot that you say, I also have gambled 20 years. Def self sabotage myself, not just with gambling. Its like things are going too good so lets fk it up.

My gambling too was out of control id start with 1000 withdraw at atm, anything less was pointless to me. I remember one day actually going into the bank and withdrawing 2500 from my credit card, like madness.

You have got to 96 days you can do it again but this time beyond. I need to come on here and read everyones stories as Im actually worried that im just focused on solely getting to 100 being super proud of myself but not have any focus past 100. Like im just striving to 100 so then I can play again.
Im really freaking worried actually.
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Re: The gambling beast just grew stronger

Postby LOSER1973 » Wed Jun 27, 2018 5:45 pm

Managed to stop for 7 days now, urges still but have booked a counseller to see only for him to call me and change the appointment, now I have to wait another few weeks ah well.
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Re: The gambling beast just grew stronger

Postby LOSER1973 » Thu Jun 21, 2018 9:07 am

Thanks Mona
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Re: The gambling beast just grew stronger

Postby Mona58 » Thu Jun 21, 2018 7:56 am

Hi ' and Welcome to the forums

Your post reminded me of another post which said something about the gamble demon in the garage doing pushups. ... getting stronger and ready for the next moment of complacency.

l don't have a lot of advice to offer... at 8 months gamble free I'm in a funny kind of mood caused by a whole range of things... and gambling is just one part of it. I do feel vulnerable and just not quite sure if I'm experiencing temptations because l have no urge to gamble and your post made me wonder if my gamble demon is in fact getting ready...

About the dopamine... I think we need to keep it stable by doing other things and satisfying activities .. which you are doing with your hobby...and since as you said it has settled. Is it mentally stimulating enough? I'm not really sure.-. to be honest perhaps the lovely people at Gamb help line can better answer this. Its' worth having a talk to them .-1800 858 858..?

About "self Sabotage" ... self destruction .. about this I think that being in recovery we are experiencing a whole range of new "feelings that our body and mind is not familiar with so that ... might be one reason relapse can happen... ?? Being happy / normal can be unusual and maybe we think we don't deserve to be... SO our addiction kicks in and the manipulative gamble demon starts rubbing its hands together with glee... its up to us to tell it to F off and kick it out of the garage!

You have given me a lot of food for thought so to speak...just what I need at this point in time.

Keep posting and read other peoples posts, I'm sure you will find what you need.

All the best on your journey to a lovely, if at times perplex, gamble free life!

Stay Strong!

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The gambling beast just grew stronger

Postby LOSER1973 » Wed Jun 20, 2018 11:45 pm

I have gambled for nearly 20 years and lost a lot of money. Casino is my thing and normally take around $1000 - $1500 when I go. I managed to stop for around 90 so days sometime late last year but cracked and didn't reach my 100 day challenge. Recently I got to 96 days (without even counting it was easy) and had taken on a new hobby which I enjoy and kept me occupied, but for some reason self sabotage and I went to the casino with $5000 on Sunday and lost it all then another $3000 today. What the hell happened? Not only have I lost the most ever in one gambling session but my gambling got way out of control with $10 spins. I thought by stopping for 3 months the dopamine level would have settled and I wouldn't have been as bad but it appears by stopping the gambling beast got a whole lot stronger and it's completely out of control now and made me worse with no losing limits. Can anyone provide insight to this? I know to have no access to money etc but I borrowed this money off a friend. I am scared now I have gone a level up with my gambling taking sooo much money. How the hell will I ever stop????? Please help me....
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