


If someone had come up to me 12 months ago and told me that I could go 12 months without gambling I would have laughed in their face. When I started this journey getting through a day without gambling seemed impossible let alone a whole year and yet here I am. There have been ups and downs, times I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out, bouts of anger and depression but through all that I have learned so much about myself. Like how strong I really am, that I'm not a bad person and that I deserve to be happy. I don't have to keep punishing myself for past mistakes. Yes, I wasted a lost of money, Yes, I lied to my family and friends and Yes, I manipulated the people I loved but those choices need not define me for the rest of my life, I have faced my choices and the consequences of those choices head on and have grown stronger because of it. I relinquished control and allowed those who love me and those who had my best interests at heart to help guide me to make better choices. I took on all advice thrown my way, read other peoples stories and took inspiration from all those who were on the same road as I was.
My Family, my email councellor and all you beautiful people on this forum have been the lifeline I've clung to, you are all my heroes, you gave me the strength and accountability I need to be successful.
For all those who continue to make their way forward, stay strong and know that you are heading towards a brighter future. To those who are struggling just know that we are here for you and you're stronger than you think, the fact that you have joined this forum and shared you story shows a huge amount of courage and determination, remember that you deserve to be happy, don't let past actions define your future.
So here's to another 12 months of freedom.....
JinxyWolf