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Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Tue Dec 05, 2017 5:56 am
by Oregon
Hi Mona,
There's a great module on resisting urges on this site. Also don't take any more money than you need!

Hope it goes well for you.

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Mon Dec 04, 2017 6:00 pm
by Mona58
Thank-you Springhope'

That's what I am doing! Taking care of myself and having to deal with this personal stuff just leaves me flabbergasted ... l can't go into detail here. The one thing is that l can sort of laugh about it at the same time. Whereby in the past I would have said F ' it and gone to the pokies hoping the Demon might be kinder! Gosh... It's the bloody demons fault!

Thanks Jeddie. (your post came in as l'm writing)
Yes. Thats' exactly it. Some people are so kind and understanding ... others just... ARGH!!! deserving of thy rude finger!

This the complexities of Life!

Laugh on Sunday cry on Monday Scream on Tuesday,... LOL!

MoAna on day 51 GF! ..., doing just GREAT!

(and the Parcels been found! thank goodness..have to pick it up tmw... 3rd trip!)

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Mon Dec 04, 2017 5:42 pm
by Jeddie
Hey there Mona, chin up, chest out, shoulders back and march past those D dens with pride. Don’t let them win. You have come so far so keep going. A lost parcel is not much in the grand scheme of things. Think of all your problems you have overcome during the last few weeks. Have a big spooky la la today then tomorrow go get ‘em at the post office and fix those other problems with a new attitude.. what ever you do DO NOT seek solace in those pokies..
I agree with Springhope, you are very caring and certainly a blessing on this forum. Stick your rude finger up to the problems and keep GH..51 days, yippee

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Mon Dec 04, 2017 4:21 pm
by Springhope17
Make sure you look after yourself Mona!

I have learnt over the past 94 days that I need to take care of myself more and focus on my own well being and happiness, if i don't do this then I cant be the best person I can be. I tend to take on others worries and responsibilities when I need to just focus on my own recovery for now.

I spent so much time over the past few years feeling angry, frustrated and ashamed of myself due to my gambling that now I need time to accept my past mistakes, move on and enjoy my happiness. I am proud of how far I have come although no one in my life really see these achievements due to the secrecy and shame of my gambling addiction.

I think I may have gotten a little off topic Mona but my point was YOU should be incredibly proud of how far you have come and I think it is obvious to everyone on here what a caring person you are!

Take care

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Mon Dec 04, 2017 12:53 pm
by Mona58
Thank-you Springbope

l really thought it would get easier ... had to go pass D. Dens then to pass one again. In post office queue my heart was practically thumping! AND My parcel has gone missing!?!*! Something is playing games with me!

Not in the best frame of mind at moment. got personal stuff to deal with which can get to me. Stuff that can be easily fixed BUT no-one reckons its their job! Never mind!

Mona in day 51 GF

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Sun Dec 03, 2017 11:20 pm
by Springhope
Congratulations on 50 days!

Im so happy for you!

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Sun Dec 03, 2017 10:32 pm
by Mona58
Thank you jeddie'

When I found this site and read others stories ... I knew it was possible.. I could not have got this far without the support here.

I read your post in Feedback..

l had been wondering why my SMS txts had stopped on 5 Nov ... I'd received a total of 15 txts and still occasionally read them .

Some of the posts worry me and I wish someone with longer gamble free experiences would step in with Much needed advice. We can only do what we can... and hope those who post once or twice do get help. I think there are sites on Facebook or other that maybe more popular with the young ones. And I do hope they go to GA meetings .

This site is now ... what...?.. 5 years old or more and I think its novelty may have worn off and there may fewer faciliators / moderators manning the site.. possible due to funding cuts which happens over time. I also think they are in the background and may well just leave us to support each other...

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Sun Dec 03, 2017 3:00 pm
by Jeddie
Congratulations on day 50. What a milestone. Would you have ever believed it was possible. Keep strong, keep posting. Won’t be long and it will be 100🌹

64 days GF

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Sun Dec 03, 2017 11:16 am
by Mona58
Never thought I'd get so excited about fried rice... it looks as colourful as the Christmas tree ... I'd started crying!

Re: Payday blues...

PostPosted: Sun Dec 03, 2017 10:20 am
by Mona58
Day 50...

Was wonderful to read through my posts from day one. 2 cups of coffee and near 2 hours later I'm feeling ecstatic!

I'd even gathered the ingredients for fried rice. Smiled looking at the bench laden with at least 10 ingredients l could put in as opposed to maybe 3 or 4 l had to make do with during gambling days.

I shed a few tears at memory,.. and as I read the other posts last night and this morning -...

One in particular (Flowers 2) had grabbed at my thought and I'd been thinking about the stupid things I'd did when playing the pokies. I had a bag with a front pocket I used to put my coins in ... if there were more than a handful of coins ... I'd put a couple in the toilet and think when someone picks it up I'd get a big win!... next l go and find the coins gone and no big win... l even once threw the last of 5 coins in the toilet.... l had a little Buddha in the pocket once and would rub its belly... its now in the river between the two venues.

Well I best get about my day 50 ectasticalliously gamble free day!