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    LetsAllstop
    Junior Member
    Posts: 5
    Joined: Fri Feb 07, 2020 11:05 am

    My story, edited. I hope this shows you are not alone.

    Thu Feb 13, 2020 9:45 am

    Hi Guys, where do I start. I am only fairly young.. almost 30, I have been struggling with a gambling addiction for 8 or 9 years. In this time I have lost friends, relationships and a house I was renting because I couldn't stop playing the pokies, I would get myself in debt then spend everything I had thinking I could win and pay my debts but just kept going around in that vicious circle, I have completely lost the value of money, I owe every friend I have left money aswell. I have even pretended to sell something and just kept the money to feed my habit because I was so desperate to get out of debt. I self excluded for 3 years but that didnt help because guess what? Everytime i got on the internet there were promotional adds for online casinos, i would go on facebook and they would pop up, i would google something and they would be there on the side, I would check my email and there would be promotions in there, this advertising needs to stop because it is targeting the ones who are already hurting the most, the same with payday lenders.. the adds are every where... i had 7 payday loans on a minimum wage, they just kept saying yes until i had about $100 left in my pay each week... Where is the control of these things! I know I also must have some self control but if you lead a horse to water then the horse is going to drink, the exact same as an addiction. I have almost already gone bankrupt but entered a section 9 debt agreement. I still can not stop playing because I am constantly in stress of All the money I owe and just need that one break to fix it all but that will never happen. I don't know what it is about these things that gain so much control over us? I know for me, when I am there I don't think about anything else and that gives me a break from my reality which is attractive, also they are designed to make us feel like we are winning even when we are not.. all the lights and sounds tells us we are being rewarded but we are not we are being robbed. I think gambling addiction is the most loneliest addiction out there and the one that isn't taken seriously, it doesn't change our appearance like drugs do, you can't physically see the effect it has on us so it can't be that bad right? Well that's wrong, I found myself considering suicide, it scared the absolute **** out of me, but fortunately enough I always break out of those thoughts by thinking how that would affect my mum, but this is also the very effect this has on our mental health. I am not even 30 and I couldn't never get a loan for a car, or a house or anything for a very long time. These things have ruined my young life. I plead that if you think you could get yourself into trouble with this then go seek help, don't put it off because the longer you let it go the harder it gets and I can assure you guys now... I would be so afraid for my safety if this got anymore harder on me."
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    Calvin (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 561
    Joined: Tue Mar 27, 2018 5:01 pm

    Re: My story, edited. I hope this shows you are not alone.

    Thu Feb 13, 2020 11:09 am

    Hi @LetsAllstop
    I'm Calvin , one of the facilitators.
    Thanks for sharing your experience, sounds like its been a bit of a rough road so far. On the forums, you will most likely connect with other members who are experiencing similar struggles to yourself.
    Quitting gambling is a journey in itself the same with breaking any habit.
    There is support out there through gambling counselling, which could be helpful for long term support.
    Well done on reaching out, it takes a lot of courage to do so.

    Anyone have any words of advice and support for LetsAllStop?
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    Springhope17
    Senior Member
    Posts: 235
    Joined: Fri Sep 08, 2017 10:16 pm

    Re: My story, edited. I hope this shows you are not alone.

    Fri Feb 14, 2020 8:54 pm

    Hi @letallstop
    How are you going? I found setting up a thread where i could write my daily struggles really helpful ay the start of my journey prehaps you could do the same.
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