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Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Tue Jul 20, 2021 10:30 am
by Printemps
@Menz199 I am indeed in Melbourne. I'm not too worried right now about lock down seeing as the weather would probably be forcing us inside anyway haha!

The power of patience is really good to keep in mind, it helps put things into perspective and I always find it helps to ground me when I'm getting a bit impatient for things to come together ASAP!

That sounds like a really lovely way to spend day 80! Laziness can sometimes be a really nice thing, just giving your self some time to get started and refresh is always important. It also sounds like you made up for any laziness with the hiking later on.

How is day 81 looking?

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Tue Jul 20, 2021 11:12 am
by Menz199
Exactly @Printemps, I feel the same way about patience.

Today’s going ok so far, the joys of waking up at 2:30 and not being able to fall back to sleep. Then having to drag yourself out of bed and get ready to work on very little sleep.

I’ve woken up twice this week around 2:30 and it took a very long time to doze back to sleep on Monday morning. Not sure why this is happening. I mean I’m no longer having night mares about gambling and I try not too have much on my mind at the moment.
I’ll figure this out one way or another.


Otherwise I’m soldiering on as best I can.

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Tue Jul 20, 2021 5:48 pm
by Lovely Cat Lady
Hi @Menz199,

Yes, definitely, "patience is a virtue".... And thanks, I think by now most of us over here have gotten the hang of lockdowns with this being our mambo no.5.... :cool:

Good to hear you treated yourself to lunch and were able to have a successful photography and hiking evening. Yeah, funny how sometimes feels like we need a whole extra day to recover from doing stuff.

Hope the catch-up with George went well and that Day 81 is going good so far. :);

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Thu Jul 22, 2021 10:48 pm
by Menz199
Hey all
Day 83, wow this is going fast, especially this week, mind you as much I like having days off, Having days off at the start of the week, they can be annoying as they can throw the rest of the week out of whack, as in I keep thinking today's Wednesday not Thursday and I thought yesterday was Tuesday hahaha.

Anyway the past few days have been great. I had my third session with the psychologist yesterday. We both agreed that I'm making great progress. I'm happier and am less anxious about social gatherings.

I have finally started on running after work and have been looking at ways I can challenge myself. One thing I have looked at is a 5km training program, that is spread over 8 weeks and by the end should be able to run 5km. Provided I stick to it, it's a great way to challenge myself. I do like to challenge myself at times. :D

I have also bought a little notebook, which I have put some short and long term goals I'd like to achieve. Something I haven't been able to do until now because thinking about that sort of stuff would just overwhelm me and I wouldn't follow through with them and I certainly couldn't plan anything while I was gambling as I was depressed half the time and felt hopeless and was always saying that I'd never amount to anything.

BUT look at me now, trying new things and planning things to strive for in the future. GO ME!

In the last couple of days I have even thought of a new job path that I'd like to aim for and maybe a career path I could consider in the long term.

I am so proud of the progress I am making and am continue to make.
Ha even as time goes on, it's harder to think of the old me.

Day 83/100 Only 17 days to GO, which Is only 2 and a half weeks away, scary when you think about it, haha.

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Fri Jul 23, 2021 9:23 am
by Printemps
@Menz199 The energy of this post is amazing! You're smashing goals. I think back to your earlier posts and the level of happiness and confidence has just increased ten fold!

Also I get you on the days off, I have my weekend Sun/Mon so I always get confused by Thursday, thinking it's Wednesday!

It sounds like you've really clicked with your psychologist! Have you found that being able to manage your anxiety in social settings is having positive effects in other parts of your life?

Have you tried Couch to 10KM? I know a few people who have used that and found it super useful!

It sounds like you've been able to get a lot of mental clarity and as you've started working on some bigger goals, like gambling and your anxiety, you have more mental space to focus on other areas of your life! A new career path is exciting! what kind of thing did you have in mind?

You should feel proud, you've put in so much work, and have been so proactive! You're really setting yourself up on a fantastic path moving forward! If you could go back and say something to the old you what would that be?

ahhh that is such a shock to think about, two and a half weeks! ;);

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Sat Jul 24, 2021 10:26 pm
by Menz199
Thanks @Printemps I really appreciate it. Yes my confidence/self esteem has shot through the roof, (A fantastic thing) I feel like I can do anything I set my eyes on. :D

It sounds like you've really clicked with your psychologist! Have you found that being able to manage your anxiety in social settings is having positive effects in other parts of your life?

Absolutely, I used to get anxious about a lot of things, particularly trying something new or talking to strangers, there has always been a bit of a irrational fear that I'd be judged for what I say or do, so I would never express my own opinion on things and normally just agree with what other people said to keep my anxiety happy. That's why I feel like I haven't been able to make many friends over the years, because I would that they would hate me if I said the wrong things.

There was also a lot of self doubt with me and I because I was depressed most of the time I felt like I'd never achieve anything or that it was trying anything was pointless. As I said right at the start, it was a challenge sometimes to even drag myself out of bed in the morning.

There more things I thought of to say here but forgot, if I remember them I'll put them in a new reply.

Have you tried Couch to 10KM? I know a few people who have used that and found it super useful!

Ah no I have not, honestly I never really have given my physical health much thought, it's not until sometime just before I have stopped gambling that I have I have given it serious thought. In my previous job I always did night shift and it was always too easy to buy junk food and was always too tired to do any exercise and did end up putting on a bit of weight, not a huge lot but enough to make me realise what I was doing to myself. But through the changes I've made here, mainly in terms of my diet and slowly becoming more physically active (mainly going for long walks) and as my mind has become clearer want to push myself further and start to run and slowly become fit. I am very thankful to George because he encouraged me last week and for me that was the light bulb moment to say, you can do this the time is now. I am enjoying exercising thoroughly at the moment. I've just got to keep going.

Wow, I just realised I still haven't answered the question lol, sorry all these other thoughts just took over.

Anyway I want to just stick to 5km for now, 10km sounds great but a goal a bit too high a goal. I think being able to run 5km is a great goal to strive for someone like me and as a starting point for a fitness goal.

It sounds like you've been able to get a lot of mental clarity and as you've started working on some bigger goals, like gambling and your anxiety, you have more mental space to focus on other areas of your life! A new career path is exciting! what kind of thing did you have in mind?

Yes it is very exciting, well a new job that I might like, is something to do with disability support in the short term. I know a few people who have worked in this area and they love it. I think it might be a great fit for me and if it isn't, well I can say at least I gave it a go. As people have told me if you don't try things you may regret it later in life.

In the long term I might look into becoming a psychologist/counsellor of some sort myself as I want to help people with their struggles. I had a bit of a chuckle too myself when I mentioned that to the psychologist.

You should feel proud, you've put in so much work, and have been so proactive! You're really setting yourself up on a fantastic path moving forward! If you could go back and say something to the old you what would that be?

I'm extremely proud of myself, ah, there would be many things that I would say to my old/younger self, too many things to list on here though.

But 1 thing would be to never give up on yourself there's always room for improvement and if you can push yourself hard enough then anything is possible, you've just got to believe in yourself.

ahhh that is such a shock to think about, two and a half weeks! ;);

I know it's scary because of how fast this is gone. But also very exciting that the end goal is soooooooooooooooooooooo close. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Yesterday I woke up nice and early and because it wasn’t too cold I even went out and went for a run which felt fantastic. Work was alright.

Today was a great day, I got a tonne of housework done. Went out shopping and bought myself a new gadget which I've had my eyes on for a little while and even treated myself to some takeaway food. I did think about buying ice-cream but resisted. But I must remember that I don't have to cut out sweets and chocolate entirely, but eat them in moderation.

Something I have come to realise in the last couple of weeks is that, when I do get stressed or frustrated, I do tend to buy chocolate/sweets or more than I usually would. As in when stressed I reach for comfort food. I hope that makes sense. I haven't eaten any chocolate for a week now which feels great. @Lovely Cat Lady would be proud haha

Sorry for rambling on.


85/100 15 days to go :D

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Sun Jul 25, 2021 1:18 pm
by Lovely Cat Lady
Hi @Menz199,

How’s day 86 treating you? :);

Wow, it’s amazing to see how much you’ve been able to work on throughout this time! As @Printemps said, you moved from addressing the gambling onto other bigger goals like social anxiety and overall a healthier life (food and exercise). Additionally, you’re giving yourself more time for hobbies like photography and planning ahead for more activities like mountain cycling. And 100% spot on, it’s so important to find a psychologist/counsellor you click well with. It’s great you’ve found one that works for you.

Hahaha, I just inevitably felt very identified with you both @Printemps and @Menz199. My week starts on Sunday and my Fridays are Wednesdays, so I just live in own week now, LOL.

Kudos on considering a new career pathway (you can always reinvent yourself). Disability support work is very rewarding and there’s heaps of job opportunities in the field.

Well done on identifying the urges/cravings for comfort food/sweets when you’re stressed or frustrated. You reckon its a similar dynamic/mechanism than the gambling urges/cravings?
LOL, I haven’t had chocolate this week either. Good on us! ;);

Lots of very exciting things are going on for you. Looks like the world is your oyster. :cool:

Countdown - 14 days to go. :D

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Tue Jul 27, 2021 10:48 am
by Printemps
@Menz199

I love your responses, so though out and insightful! Support work would be really amazing, Counselling and psychology would also be incredible. Maybe a little bit own the track you might want to look at peer support options to help others who are earlier on in their journeys?

How are you going today? :o

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Tue Jul 27, 2021 1:08 pm
by Menz199
Hey @Printemps im going great, thanks for asking 😀

Works going great, very busy.

How are you today?


Yes at some point I do want to help others with their own struggles and journeys, that’s why I’m leaning towards psychology.

I do want to help others, I’ve always enjoyed helping other people. Unfortunately when we’re gambling we only think of ourselves and constantly beat ourselves up when we get it wrong.

But now my minds free to help others again. I just had to help myself first.

Day 88- feeling on top of the world 😀👍

Re: Day 0 but feeling determined

Posted: Tue Jul 27, 2021 2:29 pm
by Printemps
That's great to hear! @Menz199

You sounds really passionate about it, and for a lot of people, knowing that their counsellors/psychologist has lived experienced and can relate to them on that level is incredibly important!

I'm doing well, thank you asking :o