I am starting the 100 day challenge!
Yesterday my grandma passed, she raised my sister and I after a tough childhood. Up until a few weeks ago I had not problem gambled in over 12 months. I have gambled $11540 of my own savings in two weeks, I am ashamed and disgusted in myself. Today and yesterday, after withdrawing and gambling all of my savings, I applied and received 3 short term loans totalling $4000 not including the fees. I gambled $1000 of this, before I chopped up my debit cards and sought help. (This is a seperate issue, what happened to responsible lending!! They get access to your bank statements!!!)
This is so hard, pokies are everywhere and feel so predatory on people like myself who are struggling. Staff at these venues do nothing, offer you free drinks and food, never asking if you are ok; despite seeing the concern on there faces. I am lucky I have a great paying job and supportive partner. I can quickly pay back and save the money I have lost in the past two weeks, and I guess I was niece to think my problem was gone, despite my progress. I am lucky I paid everything off recently and have no debt, I guess that’s something!
So with compassion and patience towards myself I will treat this as a set back, somewhat of a scare.
This is day 1 of attempt 2 to quite gambling.
All debit cards are destroyed and I will work on making my money harder to get at, ie not instant transfers.
If you are reading this, thank you, and I hope you succeed in defeating the reasons you gamble and realise your potential in life.