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Re: My journey begins

Posted: Fri Jul 31, 2020 6:38 pm
by PPS56M
DAY 10!

Feeling great! Just recently bought a new car & rewarded myself to a new bicycle as well - for my 10day GF reward.

I know it’s still early, but havent really Thought about gambling much. It’s weird, it’s almost as if I’ve been more afraid of ‘losing myself’ rather than the actual urge to gamble if that makes sense?

It’s this feeling that sits in my stomach as if I’m afraid that Because everything is going great so far im so afraid I’ll Lose my way and take a step backward and all of a sudden I’ll fall back into that dark path. But when I start to feel that fear, I have been talking to myself and reminding myself that I have control and and I’m not going to let myself end up that way.

Anywho, other than that Fear in the back of my mind, I’ve been loving everyday & trying to focus my mind on the things that matter most to me


Re: My journey begins

Posted: Sat Aug 01, 2020 1:30 pm
by gzy3
Hi @PPS56M ,

That is a positive sign that you are not thinking much about gambling!
It makes sense that you don't want to lose yourself to an urge to gamble.

It is also normal to fear for slipping up all of a sudden. You can have any thoughts and feelings but it doesn't necessarily mean that you will act on them.
As you said self-talk that you can control and remembering where you would like to be at in your life would help you stay on a right track, which you are already on!

Keep us updated, you are doing so well.