Re: My journey begins
Feeling great! Just recently bought a new car & rewarded myself to a new bicycle as well - for my 10day GF reward.
I know it’s still early, but havent really Thought about gambling much. It’s weird, it’s almost as if I’ve been more afraid of ‘losing myself’ rather than the actual urge to gamble if that makes sense?
It’s this feeling that sits in my stomach as if I’m afraid that Because everything is going great so far im so afraid I’ll Lose my way and take a step backward and all of a sudden I’ll fall back into that dark path. But when I start to feel that fear, I have been talking to myself and reminding myself that I have control and and I’m not going to let myself end up that way.
Anywho, other than that Fear in the back of my mind, I’ve been loving everyday & trying to focus my mind on the things that matter most to me