My journey begins

[PPS56M]

DAY 10!

Feeling great! Just recently bought a new car & rewarded myself to a new bicycle as well - for my 10day GF reward.

I know it’s still early, but havent really Thought about gambling much. It’s weird, it’s almost as if I’ve been more afraid of ‘losing myself’ rather than the actual urge to gamble if that makes sense?

It’s this feeling that sits in my stomach as if I’m afraid that Because everything is going great so far im so afraid I’ll Lose my way and take a step backward and all of a sudden I’ll fall back into that dark path. But when I start to feel that fear, I have been talking to myself and reminding myself that I have control and and I’m not going to let myself end up that way.

Anywho, other than that Fear in the back of my mind, I’ve been loving everyday & trying to focus my mind on the things that matter most to me

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[gzy3]

Hi @PPS56M ,

That is a positive sign that you are not thinking much about gambling!
It makes sense that you don't want to lose yourself to an urge to gamble.

It is also normal to fear for slipping up all of a sudden. You can have any thoughts and feelings but it doesn't necessarily mean that you will act on them.
As you said self-talk that you can control and remembering where you would like to be at in your life would help you stay on a right track, which you are already on!

Keep us updated, you are doing so well.

[PPS56M]

DAY 20 GF

Thanks @gzy3 !

Feeling amazing at 20 days! Been feeling very accomplished and it’s such a different feeling not worrying about my bank account and spoiling my little family here and there.

Off to treat myself to a reward tomorrow. Hope everyone is doing well and accomplishing one day at a time.

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[PPS56M]

30 days GF

Past the 30day mark.

Admittedly I have thought about jumping onto the pokies, and can proudly say I have fought the urge. I’ve had much better control than even before and have been able to turn my mind to other things!

Have rewarded myself with some new gear for my bike, which included a child bike seat so that I can take my son riding with me - it’s been the best thing ever. Have been loving our outings and my son has been so happy to get out on the bike.

Continuing to tackle a day at a time, and loving it.

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[Mish_27]

Congratulations on reaching 30 days and continuing to fight the urges!

[Dave Morrison]

Good luck and write how you are doing today.
And who is there among the readers who control their addiction in games?

[PPS56M]

DAY 1 - again

It is with deep disappointment that I find myself here to admit that I broke just past my 50 day GF mark....

I just don’t get it, I let it control my mind again.

So now I am back at day 1. Fingers crossed I get further this time, and hopefully it’s the last time I gamble in my life.

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[Wenna (facilitator)]

Hi @PPS56M

Its never easy to share your disappointment.

Keep posting and checking in to let us know how you are going with your GF journey.

All the best,
Wenna
Moderator