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Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Mon Apr 06, 2020 10:40 am
by Tassie Tiger
Hi all,
After I had a few good days (25 days gambling free last month) I gambled again yesterday. Signed up with an online casino and lost $500.
I feel so stupid and don't understand why the urge to gamble is always so much stronger than my desire to stop gambling.
I realised that I've been gambling for almost 10 years now but it got really bad in the last 3 years.
Must've lost about +$50000 over time. I did self-excuse myself from the casino last night. Had a sleepless night and still feel so ashamed of myself.
This gambling gotta stop now ...
I'll use this forum to keep track of it. DAY 1

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Mon Apr 06, 2020 11:50 am
by Mish_27
Hi @Tassie Tiger

Well done on picking yourself back up, self excluding and starting day 1! it's not an easy step to make after a lapse.

Now is a good time to reflect on what has helped you through in the passed and how to overcome potential barriers that may come up. I hope the forum is useful in giving you some ideas and some support!

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Mon Apr 06, 2020 5:18 pm
by Tassie Tiger
Thank you Mish_27.
The posts in the forum as well as the counsellor chat are really helpful.
I've got a pretty good life and shouldn't complain at all but at the moment there seems
to be a certain motivation missing. It's mostly around work and I feel bored quite often.
The current situation with the Virus and a lot of "Work From Home" doesn't help either to have more structure in life.
However, daily 10k walks, playing the guitar, LinkedIn Learning courses and some other activities will hopefully help
to "surf the urge" when it arises.

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Mon Apr 06, 2020 6:30 pm
by MPO1969
Hi Tassie Tiger

Okay - with every action there's a reaction, right ? And right now your reaction is one of disgust/ guilt/ self it what you will, right ? But what about the 25 days you didnt gamble ? What about the fact you self excluded yourself on the spot ? And ... best of all ... what about the fact you shared your experience here ? THREE things that are to be respected...acknowledged...and to be congratulated for. If nothing else today TT, give yourself a BIG pat on the back for those three things and SIT with that feeling. Tell yourself "i CAN rise again". Today is not a day for self loathing but for self reflection and being kind to yourself. It's not the time to look at what monies were lost (and trust me my friend... my losses run into numbers i dread to look at) its time to look at the credits you put in the bank by NOT gambling today and reaching out to us here today. And it's not the time to "try and understand the urge to gamble". The man you are today is not the same as the one last night .. you know it was the wrong thing to do and thats all you need to know right now. Oasis said "don't look back in anger" ... and don't ! Look forward in pride. You are a strong man TT. Lets see you back here gambling ! cheers mate

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Thu Apr 09, 2020 7:52 am
by Tassie Tiger
@MPO1969 Thank you very much for your encouraging words.
I read your post at least 5 times in the last few days. It helps me a lot and motivates me to stay gamble free.
Day 4 for me and no urge to gamble. Keeping busy with work and exercise at the moment.
I'm a bit concerned about the long Easter weekend as there's not much to do and a lot of home time.
However I've got a few things planned and will be at my girlfriends place most of the time which will help.
Also signed up with Gamban again, which is a paid service to block all your devices from the gambling and casino sites.
You can bypass it but I hope it will stop me and make me think twice when I've got an really strong urge in the future.

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Fri Apr 10, 2020 9:24 pm
by A new start
Sorry to hear about your relapse TassieTiger. It happens, I have tried and failed many times, but each time we get stronger towards reaching our goals. Glad to hear you have plans in place for the weekend. Keep at it.

Happy easter to you :)

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Tue Apr 14, 2020 3:38 pm
by Tassie Tiger
I'm really struggling to keep myself from gambling online. Had a good few days over Easter
without any urges but last night it all started again.
It's so hard to stay away from it when you think it's relaxing to gamble and make some money without working for it.
Does anyone have some good ideas to keep your mind occupied with other things when the urge to gamble arises?
Is there a software for PC and other devices that would really stop you from entering the online casinos?
I know that giving up control of my money would probably do the job but I'm just so ashamed to tell anyone.
Did anyone ever reach out to the bank in regards to their gambling? Would they be able to block transactions? What would happen
if the bank know that I'm an gambling addict. Is there any disadvantages for the future (i.e. Loan approval etc.)?

Re: Gotta Stop Now !!!

Posted: Wed Apr 15, 2020 4:48 pm
by TimTam
Hi @Tassie Tiger

So sorry to hear you are struggling so much with online gambling.
there are a few blocking programs you can download to your devices to stop your access to apps and websites. I'll list them below

Does anyone have any suggestions on things to do to keep occupied when urges pop up?
Have you had a chance to check out the thread "Activities to do instead of gambling" - here it is

Let us know how you go @Tassie Tiger

Tim Tam