Page 1 of 1

Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Thu Feb 13, 2020 3:40 am
by Co-Star
Hi Everyone

If you missed my novel on the change makers page here is the link to my story,
viewtopic.php?f=9&t=2509#p24112

I just completed day #1 and let me tell you it was a soul searching ***** slap to the face!

I was dwelling in my own misery asking myself “how did I end up here?” Reading everyone’s inspiring stories and realising I’m not alone, thank you all so much it was a great comfort over here 🙋🏼‍♀️

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Thu Feb 13, 2020 11:52 pm
by Co-Star
Day #2
Tougher than I expected, feeling all of the emotions today of how much I have let myself and my loved ones down. hoping tomorrow is a better day as emotions are one of my triggers and it seems to be consuming all of my thoughts.

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Fri Feb 14, 2020 3:42 am
by BrisbaneLad
Heya @Co-Star !! Well done on day 2. What’s the plan leading into the weekend? It does get easier. I’m only new into the journey but each day seems to be getting a little easier for me :)

Sending you lots of strength

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Fri Feb 14, 2020 6:46 am
by Springhope17
You can do this!! Make sure you put plans in the place! I found the first couple of the weeks the hardest! So try to limit ur access to cash & plan ur time so u have no time to gamble.

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Fri Feb 14, 2020 8:54 am
by Co-Star
Thank you @BrisbaneLad and @Springhope17

Happy Valentine’s Day to you both,

I am not sure what to do about this weekend, I have been throwing myself into work to keep busy but the toughest times are at night as I have insomnia and my local is open to 6am.
We had plans to go to poker on Saturday night to meet up with some friends but I don’t feel strong enough to go to a venue without temptation, problem is my husband still has not spoken to me (I am being iced out) to try and make other arrangements, I just have to stay strong and hope it starts to get easier.

Bring on day #3

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Fri Feb 14, 2020 9:54 pm
by Co-Star
Day #3 complete

I hope this starts to get easier.

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Sat Feb 15, 2020 6:35 am
by BrisbaneLad
Hey @Co-Star , so sorry to hear that.. he’s not talking to you cause of coming out cause of your gambling?!

I already wasted most of my relationships cause of this thing, so it’s good on one hand that you have something to retrieve and work back from at least?

The poker thing is tough hey .. so tempting to get back into things, even if just for fun. Are you able to sit out for a few time’s to try help break the cycle ?!

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2020 1:30 am
by Co-Star
Thank you everyone for the sound advise but I caved on Saturday night.

I was so torn, I knew I shouldn’t of gone and knew I wouldn’t be able to resist but was hoping I was strong enough to get through the night.
I went as I got a text from my husband saying he would meet me there if I was still going to go after 4 days of him not answering my calls/text or talking to me.... I obviously weighed it up and went for the sake of putting on a everything is ok face.
I should note he wasn’t talking to me because I F&$@ed up and went gambling by myself last Tuesday after work as everyone was asleep at home and I was chancing losses from the previous weekend thinking I was superwoman that could win it all back.
His problem is only if I go gambling by myself but not if we are together, but my problem is gambling full stop regardless of if he is with me or not.

I’m starting my clock again and feeling much stronger this time around, I’ve asked for support and explained my triggers and tried my hardest to articulate how this affects me as a whole. This addiction for me is not bias and will continue to destroy me if I don’t stop all together, I have to be strong and cut out all temptations from my life.

#Day 1 again...

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Thu Feb 20, 2020 1:30 am
by Co-Star
Day 3 feeling so much more mentally ready this time around. 🦥

Re: Challenge accepted!! :P

Posted: Thu Feb 20, 2020 11:55 am
by Calvin (facilitator)
Hi @Co-Star

Thanks for the update. Little lapses here and there is normal. Try to think of ways to better approach those sneaky urges when they come about.
So good to hear that you're brushing yourself off and giving it another go. 3 Days without gambling and you're already noticing a difference.
Well done and keep up the great work! :D