My day 1
I have been a compulsive gambler on and off for many years. Initially I was in denial, however , it became particularly problematic in the last 12months. I would have easily spent over a million dollars (as pointed out by my family when they were doing the books).
My access to money was in the form of various credit cards and superannuation. I lost that money over 6-12 months and almost lost our house. I am almost certain that would have been the case.
Looking back I feel awful and guilty. Recently I began gambling again after a hiatus of about 3 months this year. I started betting on sport, in particularly NRL and rugby. And small cash amounts (undetectable), built up quickly to over a thousand dollars. No one knew this was happening until my wife saw the warning signs...anxiety, moody patches, irritability with somatic symptoms.
I need help to curb gambling before I lose too much again. It has been smaller amounts the last month or so. But it was at that point last time that I lost control causing great pain and suffering to myself and family . I typically tried to "win it back" spending even more money.
I need advice and a plan to stop further damage. Hopefully the guilt and pain will ease. I am very lucky to have kept my job and have a roof over my head.
I have a history of mental illness of Bipolar type 2 and anxiety. But gambling only exacerbates these issues.