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Day one

Posted: Thu Apr 18, 2019 6:48 pm
by User 5adbc6d6e0396
A bit about me, I have been gambling for approximately 14 years ever since I could enter a venue to play the pokies. Last year I managed to go without gambling for a period of time, after blowing my entire pay for the fortnight as well as money I had saved for a holiday, I hit rock bottom and confessed all this to my sister, I guess only because I needed help to pay my rent and buy food. I should also mention that in this time I also missed payments on 5 payday loans that I had at the time, to cut a long story short I ended up getting on top of those and also managed to pay off some of my credit card debits, which felt really good.

Fast forward and here I am again, sure I’m not in as bad of a situation as I was last time, my rent is paid I have food, and a little cash left, thou I have missed payments on my loan and payday loans for the last 2 fortnight’s, I have spoken with the payday loan places and have put arrangements in place as I did last time, thou I am nervous about calling my bank and have been putting it off, I will build up the courage and do it after the long weekend I am sure.

During my gambling free time last year I self excluded from 2 venues with was very helpful I have no desire to return to them, I however have found other venues that I now attend, I also need to build the courage to go and self exclude at them, which I will also make sure I do after the long weekend, this will be hopefully the key to me going without for 100 days and beyond.

I am tired of always worrying about money, I do have a decent job that pays well, realistically it’s not something I should have to be so stressed about through my own fault, I am tired of making excuses of why I can’t go out for dinner or coffee, I am tired of ringing places asking for payment extensions or arrangements, I am sick of being so angry about it, and it being my own fault.

I should also mention that I also attended gamblers anonymous meetings which where helpful, and it was really nice to be with a group of people with similar problems, however due to work commitments I ended up stopping going to the meetings, which realistically I could attend roughly every 3 weeks but now I find myself in a position where I am to embarrassed to return because I feel like I have failed them.

I hope this attempt is more successful then my last, I don’t want to get to another birthday and not have enough money to buy a present, I don’t want to get invited for coffee or dinner and make another excuse, I don’t want to get to another Christmas and not have enough to buy groceries to take something to enjoy on Christmas lunch and have to rely on other people, I think you would get my drift.

So here’s to hopefully 100 days and beyond. All the best to each and every one of you reading this. :D

Re: Day one

Posted: Fri Apr 19, 2019 3:08 pm
by Mona58

Welcome to the forums. thanks for sharing your story.

There is no need to feel embarrassed about going back to GA meetings. I'm sure they not only will understand but also benefit from your story.

All the best on your journey.


Re: Day one

Posted: Wed May 01, 2019 10:18 am
by BrittV (facilitator)
Hi there, thank you so much for sharing your story.

I know it takes a lot of energy to share these things, but you can be proud of yourself for taking the steps to again move away from gambling.

I agree with Mona58, there's no need to feel embarassed at all - you should feel proud of yourself for deciding to take action! and before you reach the same point as last time.

How are things going for you this week?
Would love to hear. We're all here to support you!