I feel amazing
Friday, 13th April 2018
72 days and not a single tempting thought to gamble! But the journey wasn't easy.
obviously in the past I have proven myself untrustworthy, evident by the many lies i told to hide my gambling Addiction. There were also a number of other secrets, not gambling related that my wife found out about, and that in order to have any chance of salvaging our marriage, I had to come completely clean and tell her everything down to the very last detail of everything.
I still have a long way to go in proving to my wife that she will one day be able to trust me again, but I feel that we are both in a strong positive honest place in our relationship that we together as a team will work towards improving our family's future.
i feel for the first time in my life that I have completely and honestly let someone in to see the real me, emotions, fears, flaws and all. I always wanted my wife to stay in love with the guy she first fell in love with. I didn't ever want her to see that I was vulnerable, or that I had negative emotions. What that meant though was that I was only ever 80% of the real me for her and that's not fair on her.
Ive promised myself that I will never ever be anything less than 100% me for her and our kids. No secrets, never again.
we both feel closer to each other now and it truly feels like from this point onwards , we are on the road to a better future....
I am and forever will be a gambling addict
I have suffered depression, and I acknowledge that I had depression. I asked for help and reached out.
i have no more secrets from my wife
i will always tell my wife anything that is bothering me or affecting me.
She has never judged me and never will
she loves me for me the 100% me, flaws and all
i am a great husband
i am a great daddy to our children
i won't forget this journey and I have realised that so much of this could of been avoided, if only I had not been selfish and scared believing that the woman that I love more than anything would judge me or think of me as a lesser man. She thinks more of me now that's ever before because she loves me and no matter what, that was always enough for her.