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  • My new life

    For those taking the 100 Day Challenge. Share your journey, seek support and track your progress here!
    Pea pod
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    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: My new life

    Thu Nov 23, 2017 8:15 am

    Thanks everyone for your responses. Diary day 4. Pay is in. I have a list of bills to pay today. Can't ignore them. I will spend most of morning sorting through them. I have health issues that need to be addressed. Never want to pay for specialties appointments and never have the money but if I don't adress them and seek options I will suffer. I've cancelled doctors appointments while sitting in a venue. Lied to my family that I'm at an appointment but been feeding an angry pokie machine. Give me strength today .
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    Jeddie
    Senior Member
    Posts: 254
    Joined: Sun Oct 22, 2017 8:32 am

    Re: My new life

    Thu Nov 23, 2017 9:22 am

    Hi peapod, pop back on later and tell us how wonderful you feel after paying those bills. You can do it.


    Approx 54 GF days
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    IN GAMBLING THE MANY MUST LOSE IN ORDER THAT THE FEW MAY WIN
    George Bernard Shaw
    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: My new life

    Thu Nov 23, 2017 8:24 pm

    Popping back in to say nearly all my pay went on bills and over due accounts today. It feels great to be out of the red . I made it a priority and I followed through. End of day 5 GF.
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    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: My new life

    Fri Nov 24, 2017 8:05 am

    Day 6. When I relpased after 5 weeks I told myself " I deserved it" it then spiralled into the zone every second day loosing big and chasing losses. The night I relapsed I sat down in front of a machine and pretended to be in control. After loosing the first $50 I was out of control feeding hard earned Notes in fast and recklessly , all the 5 weeks of hard work and determination disappeared. There is no little pokie plays for fun. I ruin everything the minute I step into the Devils den. Give me the strength today to not bet.
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    Jeddie
    Senior Member
    Posts: 254
    Joined: Sun Oct 22, 2017 8:32 am

    Re: My new life

    Fri Nov 24, 2017 8:15 am

    Sending you strength and some love to you today Peapod...chin up, shoulders back and walk proud.


    Approx 55 days GF
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    IN GAMBLING THE MANY MUST LOSE IN ORDER THAT THE FEW MAY WIN
    George Bernard Shaw
    Springhope17
    Senior Member
    Posts: 162
    Joined: Fri Sep 08, 2017 10:16 pm

    Re: My new life

    Fri Nov 24, 2017 9:24 pm

    Great work Pea Pod!
    It brought a smile to my face when I saw your post saying all the bills were paid and you were still GF!
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    DFP
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Mon Aug 28, 2017 9:56 am

    Re: My new life

    Fri Nov 24, 2017 10:59 pm

    Congratulations on making a rational, positive decision with your money. You should feel proud. Stay strong - as your previous experience illustrates this will never go away (but it can be controlled)
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    Always a 'work in progress'
    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: My new life

    Sat Nov 25, 2017 9:21 am

    Day 7. One week today GF. The familiar urge to gamble slipped into my thoughts yesterday. It was strong and I had to talk myself through it. I spent money last night on treats for my family and takeaway. I would never normally do that because I would have gambled and have no money to spend. It's nice to be a little bit free of the worry today but I have so far to go. Give me strength today not to gamble.
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    Mona58
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1059
    Joined: Sun Oct 15, 2017 12:44 pm

    Re: My new life

    Sat Nov 25, 2017 4:27 pm

    Well done Peapod. Don't think about the "have so far to go"... just think about staying gamble free today.-. and enjoy each passing "today".
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    A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.~Confucius
    Pea pod
    Senior Member
    Posts: 182
    Joined: Thu Jun 22, 2017 12:23 pm

    Re: My new life

    Sun Nov 26, 2017 4:02 pm

    Day 8. A weekend with out gambling is always a good weekend. Urge was strong again today and I was so so so so so close to going to the pokies but instead I called the helpline. The ugly urge pulls so strongly on my mind and it takes all my inner strength not to go. I am glad I got through today without gambling. I'm very grateful for just getting through another day.
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