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  • 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    For those taking the 100 Day Challenge. Share your journey, seek support and track your progress here!
    Mona58
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    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Fri Nov 24, 2017 9:51 pm

    Congrats on 84 days GF!

    If you enjoy going out for dinner.: more expensive resturants away from venues with pokies in them

    .. a night away from kids?.. Bed and breakfasts in the country or Mountains are nice . Daylesford -Hepburn Springs ... Dandenong mountains .... Mornington Peninsula The Hotsprings are really nice! Dinner on the Puffing Billy a night in Emerald ..

    Or you could join a club of some sort if your looking for a weekly thing... I been thinking of lawn bowls... but... umm! I'd rather go skydiving!
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    A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.~Confucius
    Springhope17
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    Joined: Fri Sep 08, 2017 10:16 pm

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Wed Nov 29, 2017 11:18 pm

    Tomorrow,,, well actually in about 30 minutes will mark 90 days GF!

    Wow things have changed so much! I am still in a mountain load of debt that will take alot more then 100 days to fix but within myself I feel great! I think its the fact that I am no longer riddled with anxiety and self loathing thoughts due to my actions! I felt like the pokies were completely dominating my life all I could think of was getting my next pay check to chase my losses!

    Now I am starting to rediscover the old me, I am slowly starting to reach out to old friends and making more of an effort to keep in touch with family. When I make plans these days I keep them - I dont get out of it last minute due to either gambling or not having any money from gambling. I smile alot more and I try to be positive rather then the depressed broken person I was!

    Im still not out of the woods, tomorrow is pay day and I found myself thinking earlier today if i just went and put a couple of 100 in to the pokies at the casino i might win enough to cover all the Christmas presents. I know it sounds crazy still having these thoughts after the pokies nearly destroyed my life. But instead I told myself I dont do that anymore!

    So tomorrow I will be 90 days GF and the day after I will be 91 days!
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    Mona58
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    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Thu Nov 30, 2017 12:02 am

    Well done Springhope!

    90 days! 3 months!

    I did that last year ... I tried to win more money for better presents and ended up having to use the whole of the last payment on what could find that will make do! I talked about this with neighbour the other day. This year I have money put aside and will buy things as I see them.

    It is a great feeling to be at peace with ones self.

    Mona in day 46 GF
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    DFP
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    Posts: 182
    Joined: Mon Aug 28, 2017 9:56 am

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Thu Nov 30, 2017 4:33 am

    Congratulations spring hope. What a fantastic post. I particularly like your description about rediscovering the old you. That's how I feel too. I can also relate to the urge and the mind messages never going away - despite you being absolutely clear that your life is better, you still have the voice within you suggesting its a good thing, This is why it is particularly hard to stay quit - the disease speaks to us in our own voice.

    I've done 99 days of being in control. The fight for the real me does not stop after today. It continues to 200, 300 and beyond.

    Congratulations!

    DFP
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    Jeddie
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    Posts: 254
    Joined: Sun Oct 22, 2017 8:32 am

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Thu Nov 30, 2017 7:41 am

    Wonderful post Springhope17. Very proud of you. I'm wondering if your friends knew you were poking and can they now see the difference. Someone told me yesterday that they know their friend is poking too much because her jewellery is disappearing. How sad is that! My jewellery slowly over the years as well..keep up the great counting 🙂


    61 days GF
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    IN GAMBLING THE MANY MUST LOSE IN ORDER THAT THE FEW MAY WIN
    George Bernard Shaw
    Springhope17
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    Joined: Fri Sep 08, 2017 10:16 pm

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Sat Dec 02, 2017 12:29 pm

    Thank you all so much for the support!

    It means a lot to me!
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    Springhope17
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    Joined: Fri Sep 08, 2017 10:16 pm

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Mon Dec 04, 2017 10:02 pm

    Hi everyone!

    Just wanted to check in! I have been going along really well.

    Until a little while ago I just heard I have got a job interstate that I put in for awhile ago. This should be good news but i'm not feeling it! I think I really only put in for the job because my partner wanted me too! Its where we met and also where I developed my gambling problem from the isolation! I know he really wants to move back there! But financially I think its better to stay here I have the ability to earn more money here and I have a small amount of family/friends here. And I feel like I am on the verge of really gaining control of my life here! Being there I feel trapped with no family or friends no one to really rely on in an emergency! I can feel the anxiety building!!

    The old old me would know exactly what I want and then the more recent old me would just go along with whatever because my self esteem was at an all time low I couldn't make a decision!

    Arghh why cant life just be simple!
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    Mona58
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    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Mon Dec 04, 2017 10:21 pm

    Things have a way of cropping up just as we gain strength ... you will know what you have to do.

    I think you have already found your answer ... you posted it in my tread.

    My daughter recently made a decision after much contemplation. The following week she went "Umm Mum"...I put my hand up and said "Stop!.. you followed your intuition ... made a decision because it was the right decision so stick to it!"
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    DFP
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    Posts: 182
    Joined: Mon Aug 28, 2017 9:56 am

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Mon Dec 04, 2017 10:58 pm

    Hi Spring hope
    I have moved around a bit, and there are definitely some places where I am more vulnerable; some places I just like more and therefore less in need of an escape. Be very careful in heading back to somewhere you were not happy. As Mona said, sounds like you are clear what you want - now just be strong for yourself and have self- esteem.
    Congratulations on your journey - close to the 100 day milestone.
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    Always a 'work in progress'
    Springhope
    Junior Member
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    Joined: Mon Sep 11, 2017 8:22 pm

    Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

    Tue Dec 05, 2017 6:11 pm

    Thanks Mona & DFP,

    You were right i did know what to do and what was best for me.

    I had a counselling session today it was really good got to talk about alot of things. I am looking forward to my next session were we will focus on emotions and in particular me learning to control them.

    95 days GF.
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