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  • Day 1 for me

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    spentitallagain
    Junior Member
    Posts: 3
    Joined: Mon Apr 08, 2019 8:36 pm

    Day 1 for me

    Mon Apr 08, 2019 8:41 pm

    I get paid monthly and over the last 4 months I have spent every cent of my paycheck gambling within a handful of days.

    December: Lost $12000 in two weeks, including $7000 from my monthly pay check and a $5000 tax return
    Took out
    January: Lost $10000
    Took out three different mobile phone plans and sold the phones which I wasted gambling....
    Feburary: Lost $7000 in 10 days
    March: Lost $5000 in 7 days
    April: Lost $4000 in 10 days

    Current bank balance: $-14.55c

    I earn at the very least $80000 a year in my current job and now have had to take out another part time job to pay the bills (thankfully it pays weekly)

    Have borrowed at least $3000 from my mum in three months
    Borrowed $2400 off dad- I have paid back $1250...

    I find it hard to beat the urge to gamble.. I have removed myself from all gambling apps TAB, neds, pointsbet etc...

    Also self excluded myself from the casino.. I still find a way though.... I enjoy the atmosphere of a pub / the sportstv's / the food and I still want to be able to enjoy that.. However I find myself getting drawn into the TAB area......

    I have made it 1 hour so far..... Jesus it's tough....
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    Tilney
    Junior Member
    Posts: 21
    Joined: Tue Apr 02, 2019 7:05 pm

    Re: Day 1 for me

    Mon Apr 08, 2019 11:02 pm

    I hear ya mate. I get paid monthly too, lucky to have other smaller jobs that pay weekly, but whatever comes in, goes straight away. Spending an entire months earnings in a day every month. I begged and borrowed and am in a shitload of debt, so I came to this website and told my story and read other people’s stories. I’ve now just hit day 6, and believe me, I never thought i could go 6 days without it as i was betting every day but trust me.. every hour away from gambling makes the next hour easier to be away from it.. I’m almost a week into it and I’m feeling so much better about myself because I don’t have to feel guilty if I’m not gambling. The worst day for me was day 2.. once I got through day 2, it became easier. Keep reading this website and watch Ka Ching - A Pokies Nation, a doco on abc I view that changed my entire perspective
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    Calvin (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 274
    Joined: Tue Mar 27, 2018 4:01 pm

    Re: Day 1 for me

    Tue Apr 09, 2019 11:39 am

    Hello @spentitallagain .

    I'm Calvin, one of the facilitators here on forums.

    Sounds like you're quite stuck in this common toxic pattern that many other people find themselves in.

    Its good to hear that you have removed yourself from these toxic gambling apps. However that only acts as a temporary barrier, which isnt full proof.

    Struggling to tackle with urges to gamble is the difficult part.

    I'm curious if you have tried ways to manage these urges?
    Some people find it helpful to prioritise their essential needs food, bills etc setting short term and long term financial goals e.g booking holiday, saving for a new car etc.
    Or getting in touch with other activities that give them satisfaction, e.g physical excercise or other hobbies.

    I can understand that its easy to act on these impulses because they appear quite strong and on a regular basis.

    Remember that gambling apps, websites, venues will not disappear, no one has control or a choice over this matter. However its important to remember that we have the power of CHOICE, which can be underestimated, but getting in touch with this power can ultimately lead to more positive outcomes rather than painful consequences.

    Have you considered seeing a gambling counsellor ?

    Kind regards,

    Calvin
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    How the F did I get here
    Senior Member
    Posts: 248
    Joined: Sun Apr 08, 2018 11:05 pm

    Re: Day 1 for me

    Tue Apr 09, 2019 2:29 pm

    @spentitallagain

    Good on you for coming here, you will find we all have a lot in common. You will get some good support.
    Sounds like you definitely need to be here.

    Not sure just how much debt you are in but it sounds like you make decent money. You may be in a minus today but it shouldn't take you too long to get on top of things provided you resist the urges.

    I started handing over a portion of my $$ a year ago to someone close when I was really trying to quit, I still in that time continued to gamble almost every week with what I had access to, so absolutely no savings at all in that account in a year. But the damage wasnt quite as bad as prior to me handing over some cash each week.
    So even though I hadn't been able to quit I had a small amount building on the side.

    I finally had enough of my gambling and have not gambled at all this year, I'm actually about to hit 99 days at midnight.

    My point is you at your min of 80k a year earn 2.5 times the amount I do, and I have a nice little amount now, and my debts are slowly going down.
    so what I'm saying is it wont take long for you to grow some money.
    But my opinion now is the only way is to hand over control of a portion of your money to someone trusted, it's just way to much temptation having too much money in your account when first trying to quit.
    Could your mum or dad help you with this or do they not know?

    I earn a fraction of you, but when I started gambling again after 4.5 years clean I had 32k saved, when I lapsed I blew all of that, plus around about 25k of money coming into account, then I racked up 25k in credit debt in a 2 year period.
    At one stage I won back 17k in 2 weeks, a 10k link and a couple few thousand dollar wins. Wish I had have stopped there, but I kept going.
    See even if we get a good size win it's never enough. I won a 5 and 7.5k link also in that time.

    It's just mind boggling, I completely lost the plot.

    You can get back on track financially in no time, you just have to really want it, you have to be sick of the devastation that gambling causes. Because it's not just about the money, it's about your mental health which I am finding the hardest to get back on track! This addiction wreaks havoc on our mind.

    You can do it, hand over money to mum or dad or someone else you are close with, maybe get some counseling and keep busy!!!
    You will be surprised at the progress both financially and emotionally in a short period of not gambling.
    All the best.
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    spentitallagain
    Junior Member
    Posts: 3
    Joined: Mon Apr 08, 2019 8:36 pm

    Re: Day 1 for me

    Thu Apr 11, 2019 11:57 pm

    Hi guys,

    Back to day 1..

    Felt like the vultures were out to get me yesterday (Wednesday) managed to get my account back into the green by cashing in some beer bottles and cans that were in our recycle bin and then the bank refunded me some of my overdrawn fees.. suddenly got back to + $40 in the account

    (still 8 days til the first pay day of my second job...)

    And as soon as I started to feel like I had a bit of control then I had about half a dozen text messages in one day:


    1) Roommate: can you transfer me $12 for internet?

    2) Another mate: hey man, still waiting on you to pay $39 for cricket fees.. everyone else has paid...

    3) Zippay: Your account is now 10 days overdue

    4) Lombard finance: you are currently $251 in arrears... please fix this up immediately

    5) Vodafone: Your account is overdue please pay immediately.


    So I'm thinking to myself..... I have $40 to spend over 8 days to pay for food, fuel, mates and bills....


    My head... "Screw it. I'm going to put it all on a multi at the TAB on two greyhounds


    One paying $1.35
    and another $1.65

    Odds 2.06.. My thinking : "well at least if I double my money I can pay my mates and have enough for fuel etc..."


    But nope of course it lost... AGAIN.... And again... I walk out of the TAB feeling worthless....


    Day 1 started again today... I made it through... Still haven't paid my mates who are still hassling me..... don't know what to do about them....


    Had about a thousand coffees today and three packets of coles brand mi goreng noodles... Can't wait til Thursday but also dreading pay day aswell :(
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    Calvin (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 274
    Joined: Tue Mar 27, 2018 4:01 pm

    Re: Day 1 for me

    Fri Apr 12, 2019 3:08 pm

    Sounds like a bit of a setback for you, this could be stressful. But its good to hear that you are getting back up and trying again.

    Have you considered seeing a gambling counsellor/financial counsellor ?
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