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  • 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Chart your progress in working to overcome your gambling concerns and your ongoing recovery. Inspire others & take us all on your road to recovery!
    Elouisa
    Senior Member
    Posts: 141
    Joined: Sat Sep 19, 2015 7:46 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Wed Sep 30, 2015 7:17 am

    Hi Troy, there are more like you out here than you realise. It's such a battle but the results are life-changing.
    You've gone through a terrible time. I hope you are ok.
    That awful sick feeling of huge losses is crippling but you will get back on track and surprisingly you'll see improvement quite soon if you accept you will always put back in any wins and you'll never win enough to stop.

    I'm on Day 12 but have stopped before for a couple of years before relapsing.

    Firstly I began by limiting access to cash. No card either if you're out on your own. Tell your mates not to lend you $'s.
    Keep busy - which you sound like you are but try to plan something else in advance of when you would gamble.
    This is the hardest as time & boredom combined with money is trouble.

    Tell yourself if you keep doing the same thing you'll get the same result :(

    If gamblers were winners Las Vegas would still be a desert.

    Take care, be kind to yourself. You're not to blame - the industry is designed to legally steal our money.

    Keep your hard-earned $'s safe with someone you trust. I used to leave my card at work over the weekend.
    Hard to do but otherwise I would clean it out at venues then overdraw..., then payday loans, and go to pawnbrokers to sell stuff etc.
    Worked hard just to support a useless, time-wasting habit.

    Keep reading people's experiences and you will have something to connect to here rather than the tables.
    All the best...
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    Troy
    Junior Member
    Posts: 4
    Joined: Tue Sep 29, 2015 10:32 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Wed Sep 30, 2015 9:58 am

    Thanks for your words it means a lot, makes me feel better know that other people like are out there that have betten this addiction. Feeling real disappointed with myself but today is the second day of the 100 day challenge, still can't see myself stopping at this stage.
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    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1664
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Wed Sep 30, 2015 12:03 pm

    Troy just take each day as it comes..dont look too far ahead but just take one gamble free day at a time.It can be done with lots of hard work and determination..good luck
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    Charlotte (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 384
    Joined: Tue Nov 18, 2014 9:53 am

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Wed Sep 30, 2015 1:29 pm

    Hi Troy,

    welcome to the forum- it's a big step reaching out for help, especially having carried it as a secret for a long time. And also terrific that you've told your girlfriend - I think this can be a good start in becoming more accountable and honest. Keep taking things one day at a time - that's what the 100 day challenge is about, building the days of recovery one at a time. There's plenty of other support in the community as well, including 24/7 telephone support - Gambler's Helpline - it's a great source of support if you want to speak with someone about what's going on.

    I hope you find something here that works for you.

    All the best :)
    Charlotte
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    SW1
    Senior Member
    Posts: 157
    Joined: Mon Feb 17, 2014 6:43 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Wed Sep 30, 2015 6:17 pm

    Gday Troy,
    welcome to the forum, this forum helped me a lot to achieve 100 days gamble free early this year. And posting amongst like minded people is a great tool in recovery!
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    Troy
    Junior Member
    Posts: 4
    Joined: Tue Sep 29, 2015 10:32 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Wed Sep 30, 2015 9:54 pm

    Thanks all,

    you have been a good help already. Day 2 has not been easy as I was dreaming about playing cards on the plane to work this morning, it was like a nightmare but good when I woke to find out that I wasn't playing Black Jack but still made me feel real bad.

    Day 2 down and a gamble free one.
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    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1664
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Thu Oct 01, 2015 8:27 am

    Well done Troy..just go one day forward at a time.it is hard but worth it..we just have to retrain our thinking and it takes time but it can be done..we will support each other which really helps.stay strong
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    thanh son
    Junior Member
    Posts: 13
    Joined: Sat Sep 26, 2015 9:59 am

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Thu Oct 01, 2015 1:53 pm

    hi , just take 1 day at a time, we are trying to stop this gambling demon in us. not easy, if you think you dont want to win back the money you already lost, then i think we are all ok...in our way to a better future. free of gambling and debts..good luck to all who are trying to stop gambling...think of your family,kids, etc..,
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    Troy
    Junior Member
    Posts: 4
    Joined: Tue Sep 29, 2015 10:32 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Sun Oct 11, 2015 8:15 pm

    Hey all,

    How long before someone who has been addicted to gambling would start to feel better about themselfs? I still feel like I have distrored myself and my life, I have to most amazing girlfriend and I am very lucky to have her but after my gambling antics last time I was home I can't seem to forgive myself or forget, maybe that a good thing? maybe I will stop gambling for good this time..

    I have been asking myself so many question over the last 2 weeks, What happens if I can't control myself or get weak and start gambling again? the answer to that is simple, I will not only losse all my money but my amazing girlfriend and my mental health and maybe my job this time...

    Its a really dark place we you finaly work out that you need help and you can't even trust yourself.

    After 12 years with my head in the sand its very confronting to understand what it is that I have become ( A gambler who always ends up lossing but can't stop)

    Sorry people about the rant and I have always been strong and never had to talk about my problems, this is the first time in my life I have really needed help and it feel very strange to be so weak and out of contol

    on the good side I am 13 day in to the 100 day challenge and with 0 hours spent gambling and $0 lost to any casino online or in person..
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    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1664
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: 100 days after 12 years as an addict

    Sun Oct 11, 2015 8:26 pm

    well done Troy,,each day without playing is a good day.I am on day 75 and hardly think about them any more and if I do the urge soon goes as they are not going to mess my life up any more,.keep determined and let you be the winner
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