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  • A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

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    pamela
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    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Mon Aug 24, 2015 9:54 pm

    Well done Kerry..as hard as it must have been to confide in your family it still must be a relief.I found when I confided in my partner even though I felt really ashamed I felt that a weight had been lifted.Keep up the good work and just take it one day at a time..
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    Kerry
    Junior Member
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    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Thu Aug 27, 2015 11:27 am

    Day 12 and still focused. Life is good. Broke the cycle this month. For the past 4 or so years I have travelled regularly interstate for work hence motel rooms and lonely nights and the ability to hit a gaming venue at random. My usual pattern was to stay at a casino or similar ensuring I was close to a gaming venue in order to pump those $$$ into a gaming machine. Entertainment I'd call it. Wind down time – relaxation. Not this trip. Accommodation booked as far away as possible from any temptation. Given it was pay day yesterday – I had easy access to cash in the bank if I wanted it. Avoided temptation and paid all but a very small amount of money off existing debt leaving little in the bank for the next fortnight before leaving the office. Don't get me wrong – the temptation was there to withdraw the cash and drive a distance to a venue however temptation resisted. Proud of this small achievement. A long way to go – but I feel I'm on the right road. Despite living on the tightest budget known to man – it is kind of nice to see my accumulated debt actually reducing and not increasing for a change. It will take quite some time to fully recover from the debt that I have managed to accumulate however I can see a glimmer of light at the end of this tunnel.
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    Charlotte (facilitator)
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    Joined: Tue Nov 18, 2014 9:53 am

    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Thu Aug 27, 2015 12:31 pm

    Hi Kerry,

    It sounds like you've jumped a few hurdles this week- good on you. Opening up to family is really hard, so it's fantastic that you found the courage and space to do that. having carried it around as a secret, it's liberating to set it free. Great strategies regarding the hotel... and perhaps there are other things that can be done to wond down when away on business....hotel pool or gym?..

    Keep the focus!

    All the best,
    Charlotte
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    Kerry
    Junior Member
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    Joined: Mon Jul 27, 2015 11:53 am

    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Sat Aug 29, 2015 10:47 am

    Day 14. Feeling positive. Challenge ahead - Crown for a birthday dinner tonight and I just know that gambling will be on everyone's agenda. Not mine. Need an action plan to ensure I'm not lured in. Can't fall into the trap again. Not attending isn't an option so I'm going to have to be really strong and fight any urge that overcomes my positive frame of mind. Won't take any cash to gamble with - avoid the gaming area. Chase the challenge. No option. I hate gambling and what it does to lives. I just need to stay positive today. Thinking about it - I've saved in excess of 2k by not gambling these past 14 days. 2k that I've paid off debt accumulated oven many many years. That's achievement. Can't go backwards. This means too much to me. Remind myself over and over again. Chase the challenge. I WILL NOT PUT ONE CENT OF MY HARD EARNED MONEY INTO A GAMING MACHINE TODAY!
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    Keeton
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    Joined: Mon Jun 23, 2014 2:19 pm

    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Sat Aug 29, 2015 8:09 pm

    May I suggest you take your phone ipod or anything with games or music on it and when everyone else going and gambles you can do that. Thats what I do and I feel good about it afterwards. Some clubs and venues even have free wifi you can use.

    All the best

    Keeton
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    pamela
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    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Sat Aug 29, 2015 11:06 pm

    Good luck with that Kerry it will be a hard challenge but you are determined not to put any money into a poker machine and therefore I dont think you will.And Keeton what a good idea..good work everyone
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    Kerry
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    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Sun Aug 30, 2015 11:40 am

    And I DIDNT PUT ONE CENT OF MY MONEY INTO A GAMING MACHINE. And I had a fabulous evening without GAMBLING! It can be done! Chase the challenge - not the win.
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    pamela
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    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Sun Aug 30, 2015 5:06 pm

    Well done Kerry..proves we can live without the poker machines..you must feel very pleased with yourself.
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    Rod
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    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Sun Aug 30, 2015 9:40 pm

    Congratulations. Well done. And you had a more enjoyable time too. I'm experiencing similar revelations doing my challenge. Stay strong. Each day. Every day.
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    Charlotte (facilitator)
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    Joined: Tue Nov 18, 2014 9:53 am

    Re: A desire to prove this cycle can be broken

    Fri Sep 04, 2015 2:45 pm

    Well done Kerry! You've done really well to be able to go out to Crown, not gamble and have a good time. What's the driving factor at the moment?

    Charlotte
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