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    SW1
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Wed Jan 13, 2016 6:52 am

    Day 5 today.
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    Elouisa
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Thu Jan 14, 2016 6:03 am

    Hi SW1, great to see you aren't giving up on giving up!
    We all stumble but the key is to keep going forward like you are doing.
    I hope you got through pay-day. It's a real test for all of us. Easy to abstain when there's no money.
    Good luck and remind yourself you've got a great future ahead without gambling
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    SW1
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Thu Jan 14, 2016 4:19 pm

    Gday Kristine,
    Thank you for your support.
    Yes all good going through pay day, day 6 today. Head down and focus on not gambling!
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    SW1
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Mon Jan 18, 2016 1:05 pm

    I really want to gamble, this is because I'm an addict. Regardless of where it has taken me, how it has severely affected my life. I still want to do it! I'll win the jackpot at the casino that I went to last Friday night ha in over 12 years of seriously gambling I have never won a major jackpot. That major jackpot is less than what I have gambled in the last 12 months, let alone 12 years!
    If I even won it, it would be gone in a few weeks!
    This insanity grips me and has taken control of me, but today I will say no.
    I start work tomorrow after holidays, I have things to do to get ready, I have to fulfill my responsibility of being ready to work. Not sitting in a casino or pub for a few hours and then sitting doing nothing because I have blown my money.

    I have the responsibility of using my money on other things, bills, food for myself etc.

    I hate this and what it has done to my life, but I struggle to stop it, because I am an addict.

    Day 4 today
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    pamela
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Mon Jan 18, 2016 8:52 pm

    Hi Sw..we all have to be on guard and not let our defences down or that demon will take over again.We will never be in front and will always be chasing a win that we will never get and if we do we put it straight back in ..I will not chase it again..I do not trust myself fully yet but I do not think about playing the pokies much anymore but everynow and again I think of them but it is fleeting..we just need to stay strong and say no
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    SW1
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Tue Jan 19, 2016 6:54 am

    Gday Pamela, thank you for your words of support, yes the truth is I will never win, I am a compulsive gambler and nothing will ever be enough!
    I need to stop this. One day at a time.
    Its actually day 4 today I miscounted yesterday.
    I have access to cash at the moment which is a worry, and am starting at a new workplace, all those stresses etc. You are right Pamela, we have to stay on guard at all times
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    pamela
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Tue Jan 19, 2016 2:22 pm

    SW1..it takes time and effort..having cash is hard because we want to feed the machines and none of us here can be controlled gamblers because with us its all or nothing..but once you get used to not going and having a bit of money..you will want to keep it..I know I still spend a lot of money but it isnt on poker machines and I am happy with that..so every day wake up and so no to the pokies
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    Elouisa
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Tue Jan 19, 2016 4:43 pm

    SW1 the first 4 days are very hard so good on you especially when money is on hand.
    It's tricky in the early stages as we are desperate to have a last reckless chance at a win to pay some debts.
    Hang in there and ignore the urges - they do pass.

    Pamela you are spot on. Well said! You give us all such a boost! :)
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    SW1
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Tue Jan 19, 2016 7:29 pm

    Thank you again as always Pamela and Kristine, a constant reminder of why I don't want to gamble is exactly what I need to give myself!!

    And not giving up! I am In the whoa is me cycle of being an addict. And this isn't positive at all. We do suffer depression as a result of our gambling and in NY case drinking as well. But I also have a side of being stuck in that self pity cycle!
    .with abstinence it will lessen, I need to move away from the cycle of gambling.
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    pamela
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    Re: 100 days challenge number two

    Tue Jan 19, 2016 7:44 pm

    Sw1 we all get depressed about our gambling but once you stop I hope that will improve for you once you realise there is a life after gambling..we cannot change our past mistakes but we can shape the future given time..domt be hard on yourself instead feel proud that you have admitted a problem and are doing something about it..well done
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