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  • Extremely Lost / Day 2

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    shaun1
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    Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Fri May 04, 2018 3:28 am

    I feel extremely lost...

    Yesterday i self excluded myself from venues in my area to stop me gambling.

    I just feel worthless.. i should be happy I've taken this step but i feel stupid, how could i do this to myself for the last 10 years...

    I'm fairly smart person, most people tell me i should be doing more with my life, i should be working at a higher position in my job, i should be this and that, but no i'm addicted to machines DESIGNED to be addictive and i'm that stupid to be addicted to them...

    I work in the industry as a gaming attendant, u would think i would know all the risk and how much money that actually bring in etc even with ALL that information at my disposal i was still stupid enough to keep going back leaving myself with no savings nothing...

    I think the self exclusion will stop my gambling, i never have and want to get to other venues in order to gamble, i just do it cause there convenient and right down the road, i wouldn't bother getting public transport to go else where i know that for a fact. i don't drive

    I'm kind of tired of posting on here and getting the same messages back that im doing a good job and keeping it up and that i can do this and etc etc im the total opposite i NEED to be told i have a problem and its not okay, what im doing is not okay and that i need to change. i know i can do it i don't need to be told but i need to be told i have a problem.

    /rant
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    Jo-Anne
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    Posts: 457
    Joined: Fri Feb 12, 2016 10:40 pm

    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Fri May 04, 2018 9:48 am

    Shaun.....you are a problem gambler, just like me. If I was you I would take the advice and train for another job and get away from the machines. It would be like me trying to work at the TAB or Casino....OMG😁😁😁 😎😎😎 😣😣😣

    I know you don't want "nice" but you have pretty much recognized the problem, and now need to take action.

    All the best mate

    Jo
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    Mona58
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    Joined: Sun Oct 15, 2017 11:44 am

    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Fri May 04, 2018 2:44 pm

    What you have done and are doing is use your "smart'' to quit gambling. I do understand that you feel stupid we all have.
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    A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.~Confucius
    pamela
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    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Sat May 05, 2018 8:10 am

    Hi Shaun..you have done well and all of us that come here feel ,"stupid"..but we all have different reasons for gambling.Stopping that cycle is the smartest thing you can do..grab life by the horns..take a different job..take a chance..life is for living
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    How the F did I get here
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    Joined: Sun Apr 08, 2018 11:05 pm

    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Mon May 07, 2018 8:40 pm

    My best advice would be get a job where there are no pokies.
    I have worked my whole life in hospitality around pokies ( up until my current job) and im quite certain that did not help my cause.

    Believe me when I say I can relate to the added depression experienced when you loose all your money and then have to go and work around them, doing payouts, clearances. Bloody excruciating!
    It's like you block out all the times you see people loose crap loads and when you see people have good wins it sticks.
    And that feeling of feeling even more of a fkn loser because we should know better.

    And everyone is giving you all messages, how well you are doing etc because quite frankly everyone is here to show support, not kick a dog when its down so to speak!
    And I for sure wouldnt want people telling me to stop being a pathetic loser, when I already think that of myself.

    Seriously get out of the industry and do it now before more time passes and gambling F up your life even more, then you find yourself with no confidence to do anything else.
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    Jo-Anne
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    Joined: Fri Feb 12, 2016 10:40 pm

    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Mon May 07, 2018 9:13 pm

    Shaun.....seems like great advice from someone who knows!! Tara 😊😊😊 I love your reply....
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    Calvin (facilitator)
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    Joined: Tue Mar 27, 2018 4:01 pm

    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Thu May 10, 2018 12:03 pm

    Hi Shaun,

    It's great that you have taken action in self-excluding yourself from the venue.

    People from all walks of life can become gamblers. Many people that have a problem with gambling experience the same type of emotions you are currently experiencing and feeling quite lost. Some times all of this can become quite overwhelming and stressful.

    You have already completed the first two steps which is
    1); Recognizing your gambling as an issue.
    2) Taking action (Self-exclusion)

    So you don't necessarily need someone to tell you bluntly that you have a problem. You have clarified it by yourself and you're two steps ahead already. Now it's just a matter of setting goals, keeping yourself busy and engaging in your own self-care.

    If you ever need further support, we are all counsellors here at Gambler Helpline and we'll be happy to have a chat with you and support you. You can contact us at 1800 858 858.

    regards,
    Calvin
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    User 5901c96536336
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    Re: Extremely Lost / Day 2

    Thu Dec 06, 2018 7:53 am

    OMG you sound like me except I relapsed and lost $$$$$$
    I stopped for over 12 months on a barring order until I found a pub that I wasnt barred from and then it was on..
    God I wish I never found rhat out believe me.
    Well Ive applied for more pubs to be added and hope that ive learnt my lesson as you will also.
    My friend gave me some good advice.

    Surely you dont want to sit infront of a machone all day that gives you nothing!!! Put the money onto a savings account instead. Well I did and after a year I bought a new car..just need to find new things to do instead of gambling..
    I now plan on doing it all over again and save for my lounge and holiday..you cam do it too!!!!
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