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  • Day one...

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    selymm00
    Junior Member
    Posts: 1
    Joined: Sat Jul 22, 2017 5:49 pm

    Day one...

    Sat Jul 22, 2017 6:01 pm

    Hi,

    I am new to this... This is pretty much the first time I am seeking help for my addiction. I guess I'll use this time to explain a little bit about whats brought me here...

    I am 30 years old, and have been gambling since I was approximately 18. My earliest memory of gambling was of me losing $5 in the pokies at my local pub. I remember the feeling of how bad it was to lose so vividly. I did not enjoy the experience.

    However, after that, my friends and I started going more often, and $5 turned into $10, $20, etc. Then we started visiting the casinos and taking $60, $100, $200, and so it progressed... I now currently lose (on average) about $500/$600 a week

    2 years ago, a friend of mine (also a co-worker) took her own life. Since then, I have noticed my gambling getting worse and worse. I am very self aware by nature, so I have literally witnessed this change in myself, and I can almost definitely say its due to an inability to cope with her death / a method of escapism. Even though i recognise this, I have never reached out to anyone to discuss it, and how it's impacted my gambling.

    I guess what I'm looking for on here is support, friendship, comradery from others going through something similar. Anyway, this is day 1, and I am committed to giving "quitting" a real shot. I don't want to let gambling control my life.
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    pamela
    Senior Member
    Posts: 1662
    Joined: Sun Jun 29, 2014 9:38 pm

    Re: Day one...

    Sun Jul 23, 2017 9:41 am

    Hello and welcome.support and help is certainly what you get here..recognising a problem is the first step,doing something about it is the second.Stopping doesnt come easily to everyone but if you want it bad enough it will happen.keep strong and good luck
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    Jerry (facilitator)
    Senior Member
    Posts: 331
    Joined: Thu Nov 26, 2015 12:02 pm

    Re: Day one...

    Sun Jul 23, 2017 3:10 pm

    Hi selymm00,

    It sounds like your friends death hit you pretty hard. If you are using gambling to try to escape dealing with that then maybe you could consider grief counselling?
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