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Ending the cycle for good

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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby jimi68 » Fri Aug 25, 2017 6:35 pm

well done peapod,
I was also thinking all the time at first but eventually it became less and less until now its hardly ever.....
just takes a little time.....
At least you know your energy is spent on something that's worth the effort..
keep at it .
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Pea pod » Sun Aug 27, 2017 2:50 pm

I caught myself walking around a shopping center today feeling like a normal person. As a gambling addict you know what I mean. All the years of just wishing I could get pleasure out of an ordinary weekend activity like "walking around a shopping center " happened to me today. I had $$ to spend on a meal in the food court and a few items at the shops. Normally I would have been hungover with guilt and shame from gambling but not today. Today is day 21. I have socialised with family and friends and enjoyed every single minute. Oh how good it feels to feel normal. I wish you all a happy Sunday.
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Pea pod » Mon Aug 28, 2017 1:10 pm

Hello. I am officially in my fourth week gamble free. How I feel depends on what day it is and what triggers I've had to deal with. Restlessness and Bordem can be relieved easily most days but some days it's harder.
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Jerry (facilitator) » Mon Aug 28, 2017 3:46 pm

Hi Pea Pod,

It's really nice seeing your progress. You are doing great :)
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby pamela » Tue Aug 29, 2017 12:04 am

Well done Peapod..filling the gap is hard at the start but after awhile even doing nothing comes easy and you dont have to think about what to do...keep up the good work
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Pea pod » Tue Aug 29, 2017 11:19 am

Thanks Jerry and Pamela, when they tell you the urges get less and weaker it's true. I have the time and $$ today to gamble if I chose to but I've been for a huge walk instead.
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Pea pod » Thu Aug 31, 2017 9:09 am

Hi. It's day 25 GF for me. This morning I'm not well. This made me reflect on my health and how neglected it becomes when your gambling. I gambled when I was sick. I gambled when I should have been resting in bed with a flu or chest infection. How many of us knew we should
Be resting but rather have been at a venue instead? Today I can rest at home and get better without needing to escape and ignore my ill
health by playing a poker machine. I remember sitting next to elderly people who would be coughing and almost choking or whezzing away while gambling. I felt annoyed by their noises beacuce it disturbed my zone but really I should have felt sorry for them. Today I'm staying home , eating well, resting and putting my health first.
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby pamela » Thu Aug 31, 2017 10:01 am

Hi Peapod.sorry you arent well but yes you are right..I used to go gambling without showering sometimes as I thought it might eat into my gambling time.I have sat in a venue feeling like crap but determined to "have fun" and catch that win..our thoughts really arent logical.when we gamble
Rest up and get well
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Pea pod » Thu Aug 31, 2017 10:42 am

Thanks Pamela. Part of gambling while
Sick for me was that I unconsciously felt I didn't deserve sympathy or rest. When I lost I would tell myself I deserved to lose because I was sick and a
Looser. The pain and heart ache of it all is to much to think about sometimes.
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Re: Ending the cycle for good

Postby Pea pod » Fri Sep 01, 2017 8:29 am

Friday and my pay has gone in. I never gambled 1$ last pay and it feels great. This pay will also be left alone and not spent at on a on a poker machine. I'm stillnotnfeeling well today but that ok at least I am aware of it and looking after myself. One thing I have noticed this week is my moods again are terrible. I can easily blow up and that's a bit frightening. I will talk to the counsellor about it next week. I think it's part of the addiction withdrawal because I have to feel Everything now I can't run away to the pokies when I'm upset or angry about something. Feeling all the emotions isn't pleasant but I guess after 20+ years of not feeling it's not going to be easy. I will have a quiet but happy weekend as I go into my fourth week GF. All the best everyone 😄
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