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My Last Day One

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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Cazza » Thu Jun 21, 2018 6:51 am

Well done for resisting though jc. Unfortunately for us gamblers there are lots of triggers for us every where . Just an image can give us a "flashback" to when we were winning.

You younger gamblers are living with a two edge sword in the fact that there are so many years in front of you to save again. But the fact of how much anguish over a stupid bloody addiction during what should be the most carefree part of your lives.

At 26 i had been backpacking through Europe, Canada and the US for 2 years came home and saved enough to buy a house at 28. Then i discovered the pokies at 29.
Now instead of putting our wages towards retirement in 20 years we have at least 10 years of extra mortgage repayments to get through.
These numbers are making sure that I never go back to gambling again.

Stay strong jc and find your anti gambling trigger 😊
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Jc » Sat Jun 23, 2018 12:11 am

Hi Cazza, thanks for the support.

I traveled to europe when I was 20. Only for a few weeks but it was so good. Havent been since. I was gambling here and there but it was never a ‘problem’. It sucks but we cant dwell on our mistakes because that just makes us miserable. I try to stay as positive as possible.

Day 56.
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Cazza » Sat Jun 23, 2018 9:13 am

Have a great GF weekend jc 😊
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Jc » Mon Jun 25, 2018 9:37 pm

Hi All,

I’m feeling desolate. Empty. Full of rage and anger sometimes. Some days are filled with such despair that I want nothing more to cocoon myself in my bed. I dont want to give up and certainly don’t want to give in.

May was pretty breezy but this June Ive felt so bad...

My last lapse: April 28 2018 - one $50 bet.

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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Springhope17 » Mon Jun 25, 2018 10:10 pm

Hi Jc

I know the feeling! The rage, anger, frustration.

Then the shame just wanting to stay in bed not deal with the world! It can all become to much. I've had many of sick days when I just couldn't handle the world!

But u have made it to 58 days and June is all most over and you have made it thru!

Keep trying! We can do this
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby JinxyWolf » Mon Jun 25, 2018 10:45 pm

Hey JC,

Yeah I know all about the anger, the shame and the guilt. I went through a periods of raging anger where I just wanted to set the world on fire, stages of depression when the very thought of getting out of bed seemed impossible, wanting to isolate myself from everyone, I just couldn't deal with any of it and you think "this is life without gambling, why am I doing this to myself?" but as time goes by, the fog lifts, the sun starts to shine and happiness takes over.

I found it took a good 4 months or more for my moods to finally even out. My brain was adapting to a life with out gambling and it was not happy. "Where is my adrenaline rush?" "Why has it gone" "I want it back" This was my brain screaming at me, it was in shock, after years and years of repeat behaviour it was suddenly gone and my brain didn't know what to do. So it tried everything to get me to go back to that behaviour, urges, constant thoughts of gambling, bouts of anger and depression, flashes of the gambling fantasy. Then a shift, my brain began to accept the fact that this behaviour was no longer going to happen so it started to adapt. My moods began to even out, urges of gambling subsided, the fantasy of gambling made way for the reality of gambling.

What you are feeling is normal, withdrawal is part of this journey. So dig in those heels, push though it, fight for what you want and you'll come out the other side a much happier person, you are stronger than you think.

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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Jc » Wed Jun 27, 2018 8:35 pm

Hi Springhope and JinxyWolf thank you for the kind words. Feeling a little better.

Today marks 60 days. 60 days. Now this is the longest Ive ever gone.
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Jc » Wed Jun 27, 2018 11:02 pm

I was reading an article on Vice.com.au...they said that around 6.8 million Australians gamble at least on a monthly basis. That number is so scary. Thats like 1/3 of the population.

“The report identifies an estimated 6.8 million regular gamblers in 2015, among whom lottery participation was very common (76%). Instant scratch tickets (22%) and electronic gaming machines (EGMs; 21%) followed, attracting 1.4 to 1.5 million gamblers. Less than a million gambled regularly on anything else, including racing (14%), sports betting (8%), keno (8%), casino table games (3%), bingo (3%), private betting (2%) and poker (2%). It was common for people to participate either solely in lotteries (59%), or a combination of lotteries and up to two additional activities.”

I know most of it is lotto and some dont consider it gambling per se, but think about now that there is a lottoland website where you can gamble on worldwide lottos...its so scary.
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Cazza » Fri Jun 29, 2018 6:36 am

Interesting read jc.

It depends on what is considered to be the norm these days i suppose. Some of us abstain completely. Some play online free games and some still play lotto while some of us just cut down our spending on our vices during our journey to become gamble free.

Everyone has their own road to travel and i guess we all do the best we can. All i know is that we are discovering that we are stronger than we thought and day by day we are getting there. 😊
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Re: My Last Day One

Postby Jc » Sat Jun 30, 2018 1:15 pm

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