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Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Tue Feb 13, 2018 7:20 pm
by SW1
Hello everyone,

I am addicted to gambling. Pokies are my main vice, but I have gambled on almost everything possible.

It has been a battle with it for my whole adult life.
As a result of my gambling I am in a large amount of debt. I am behind on bills including a couple of those awful payday loans.
The gambling hangovers I have last a few days and impact on all aspects of my life.
Dealing with the cycle of getting paid, gambling it all and then trying to last another fortnight with little or no money.
And all this time the crafty gambling addiction tells us that we won't ever gamble again, and we don't even want to gamble again. But as soon as we are paid those strong desires, urges come back. I get an overwhelming desire to gamble, and succumb to it. In a couple of hours (if my money lasts that long) I walk out of that pub with what often feels like pounding in my stomach. And the cycle begins again.

I would like to post updates on here and speak to people here who know how this feels. I am also trying to arrange sessions with a therapist which I know will help.

Today is day 2

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Wed Feb 14, 2018 6:00 am
by SW1
Day 3 today

No desire to gamble, and I know this is because I have no money. Next Thursday is payday, that will be when my gambling demon returns.

Have a good day everyone, and stay gamble free

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Wed Feb 14, 2018 7:04 am
by Mona58
Welcome SW1

Congrats on deciding to Quit gambling. It is tough but you can do it!

stay strong and keep posting so we can support you where we can.

Some days are good and when days are not so good l read posts for strength.

One day at a time!

Mona on 123 days GF (4 month and 3 days)

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Wed Feb 14, 2018 10:00 pm
by DFP
Start planning now for next Thursday (payday). Limit your access to cash on that day - there are different strategies including not having an ATM card linked to your account (cut it up or give it to someone you trust ), and instead have a pre pay visa card where you load a small amount of money on for spending; or having a credit card with the 'no cash accesd' option, and use paywave for purchases. Or give your cards to someone else, who then gives you a small regular allowance.

If you have access to cash next Thursday, the chances of a bust are high. Limit cash, and plan on doing something purposeful instead that evening.

Keep going strong, keep posting, keep reading and start establishing your strategies and positive rituals.
All the best, DFP

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Thu Feb 15, 2018 6:18 am
by SW1
Thank you for the messages and support Mona58 and DFP.

Yes, definitely planning for next Thursday is so important! I will have to inquire about a new debit card and limiting the access to cash on it. Unfortunately with my credit history I can't get a credit card.

Thank you for reminding me to plan for the day though! It is so important. It is something I fail to do time and time again.
Today is day 4.

$29 to get through the next week, and the creditors chasing me up about unpaid bills. Another part of this vicious cycle is how much it leads to me detaching myself from leading a fulfilling life, and detaching myself from reality.
My mind is normally only focused on the need to survive until the next Thursday and I want everyday to go by so quickly that I don't make the most of them, I don't engage in interaction with others. I struggle to maintain focus on work. I stop looking after myself. This is all because my only goal is to get to that next pay day. I tell myself its because when I get paid, things will be good, I will pay off my outstanding payday loans, my power bill etc. But the reality is that deep down, i want to get to that payday so that I can gamble again.
Win that jackpot and everything will be okay!
I hope that makes sense!!

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Thu Feb 15, 2018 11:17 am
by Mona58
I'm not sure what you meant by "that makes sense" ... if it meant waiting for next payday so you can gamble..? focusing only on making days go faster so as gamble day comes ? these only makes sense to the gambler... whom only the gamble demon praises.

Why do you keep letting that demon control your life? It is hard work to get our life back to "normal". Get off that threadmill! and get on another that doesn't consist of gambling,

A gamble free life is really worth fighting for!

Learn to understand and accept the reactions of your mind & body.... know why its happening and don't give your demon its time of day! WIN BY NOT GAMBLING!

Its a tough old road ... YOU can do it SW1 ... if you really and truly want to!

Repeat = The gamble free life is worth fighting for!

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Fri Feb 16, 2018 4:48 am
by DFP
Next Thursday, as soon as you get paid, use the money to pay those bills / debts. Do it straight away, so that there is very little money left for you to waste should you give in to the gambling urge. Don't think twice about this (your inner gambling voice will try to tell you to play for a big jackpot).

Gambling got you into this mess. It will not get you out of it. You will get out by not gambling. It will be a slow road. There are no quick wins. Don't waste any more money with such delusion.

You should also follow up about counselling and debt counselling.

Stay strong and put those plans and actions in place now.

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Sat Feb 17, 2018 8:05 am
by SW1
Day 6 today.
I won't gamble today.
I hope everyone has a great day and stays gamble free!!

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Tue Mar 06, 2018 8:48 am
by SW1
Day 23 today, got through last payday and paid off two of my three payday loans, another tight fortnight. I have started counselling which will help, and the sessions are on my payday.
Its hard not to look back on the years we waste gambling, the hundreds of thousands of dollars that have been pushed into the pokie machines.
But we can't change it, all we can do is fight today. Today I will not gamble

Re: Taking the 100 day challenge

PostPosted: Tue Mar 06, 2018 2:59 pm
by Oregon
Hi SW1
Congrats on reaching 23 days and being on the road to recovery.

It will get easier. Stay strong.