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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2017 4:15 pm
by Cam
Your initial post was so similar to my situation. I feel your pain and only people that have been down this road could know what it feels like! Keep up the good work. I'm going to start from today and make sure I never waste another hard earned dollar.

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2017 7:36 pm
by Springhope17
Hi Cam,

I hope you make today a GF day its a horrible thing to suffer from.

Lets not feed anymore of our hard earned dollars into the machines!

I really appreciate everyone's support and comments on here it helps to have people to talk to who suffer from the same addiction and problems.

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Tue Sep 12, 2017 9:20 pm
by User 586eee5282d07
You have made some really smart choices over the past 11days and are doing great. Everyday you don't gamble the feelings of wellness will grow and start to push away the anxiety and remorse. You can do this, keep posting :-)

Sandra

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Thu Sep 14, 2017 3:36 pm
by Springhope17
Thanks for all the positive comments.

Today is day 13 GF.

I spoke to an online counsellor last night as I was feeling really down and negative with myself. I was like how could I have been so stupid why didn't I stop years ago? How could I get myself in SOO much debt? It feels like it will take a lifetime to pay off! It helped me focus on the positive and not be to hard on myself.

Last night I dreamed of pokies.. I was at the casino and I won a $8000 jackpot and then a $1500. I woke up frustrated that I was dreaming of gambling. I kept busy all day and made sure I had no access to funds just in case I was tempted to go and play.

When does it get easier?

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Thu Sep 14, 2017 8:33 pm
by FamilyFirst
Hi Springhope17,
Hello and congratulations for having a good go at it.
13 days GF is a great effort!!
For me, I felt ashamed and useless for about 3 weeks after my last bet.
I had and still do have strict measures regarding cash and cards, so I couldn't really gamble anyway. But those desires to gamble eased up eventually and I was able to move forward a lot easier.
What's done is done, don't dwell on your past mistakes, try and forgive yourself but never forget.
Use all your horrible gambling experiences as tools, next time an urge strikes, try to think of how bad you have felt after a crap gambling session... Punch that urge away!
Seriously try to keep limiting access to cash and try to fill your spare time :D
Keep up the good work, it does get easier, one day at a time.
Cheers, Lee

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Fri Sep 15, 2017 5:09 pm
by Springhope17
Thanks for the advice Lee,

I am hoping like you, with time the feelings of uselessness and misery will begin to fade.

I will always remember them any time i feel the urge I will remember feeling completely worthless leaving the casino losing every dollar to my name!

Its Day 14 today.

One day at a time.

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Sat Sep 16, 2017 4:43 pm
by Springhope17
Today is Day 15 GF!

A few people have mentioned a couple of documentaries to watch one was KA CHING and I cant recall the name of the other one? Can anyone please advise me?

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Sun Sep 17, 2017 3:00 pm
by Dependz
Hey Springhope,

Doing so well, understandable to have a bit of a reflect on things, but definitely better now than never. Keep up the good work.

I've heard good things about the Dalai lamas - art of happiness and have recently been reading Buddhism for busy people by David Michie

All the best, look forward to keeping up with your progress :)

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Mon Sep 18, 2017 11:55 pm
by DFP
Hi Springhope

I think the second program to watch (in addition to kaching) would be "you can't ask that" on gambling (series 2 on iview). A group of gamblers answer questions about their addiction
Very powerful.
Hope you are going well. Stay strong and focused.

Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

PostPosted: Wed Sep 20, 2017 3:23 pm
by Springhope17
Hi everyone,

Thanks for all the positive advice.

Today is day 19 GF.

I am struggling alot! I can feel all the old warning signs!

I am about to get paid and as usual I don't have enough to cover all the rent, bills and all the loan and credit card repayments i have accumulated from this addiction. I can feel the urges in my head saying you have no way to pay all the bills if you play just a couple of $100s and then win $500 it will help cover some bills to next pay. But we all know its never just a couple of $100s I will go in lose $50 then chase that and sit there until there in $0 in my account. Having these thoughts are making me feel agitated and annoyed with myself, in addition I am feeling down and tired!

I am determined to keep myself busy and NOT gamble.