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100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Springhope17 » Sun Dec 10, 2017 10:37 pm

Thanks for all the support!
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Springhope17 » Mon Dec 11, 2017 12:03 pm

So it turns out that today on 101 days GF I have become a Senior Member! haha must be because I cracked the 100 posts!

This week I am focusing on self care and rediscovering more of my interests! As well as preparing for Christmas! I have nearly all of my presents sorted!
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Springhope17 » Tue Dec 12, 2017 4:15 pm

102 days GF today!

I had a very busy and productive day got all my Christmas presents sent at the post office! Now I can relax and enjoy Christmas!

I found myself last night playing the free pokies on the online app- my other half has it on one of the tablets! It was the aristocrat one! It was so real I could feel all the emotions coming back anxiously waiting free spins! I started with 2000000 points and got up to 15000000 then pretty much lost it all with in an hour! So pretty much nothings changed! Whether its real money or not the game/pokie always win!

That app has now been deleted and that's an hour of my night wasted!
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Jerry (facilitator) » Tue Dec 12, 2017 4:23 pm

Good job deleting that app Springhope.

The free gambling games use the same mind control techniques that the pokies do. They are designed to draw people in and make them want to gamble.

Tetris, Candy Crush or Angry Birds don't try to get people addicted to gambling.

Admittedly Candy Crush can be pretty addictive. But it's cheap.

Keep up the good work.
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Mona58 » Wed Dec 13, 2017 5:11 pm

Yes... Candy crush can be addictive! l stopped playing when I first came in here... now I'm playing it again. I like that you have to wait an hour once you run out of 5 lives! I'm now in level 620! I've had the game for over 6 months now. I limit myself to a game at morning and after noon tea times. Its free! I don't buy lives or tokens,

I did notice that 101 days and 101 posts,, I love this mysteriousness of numbers... like supersition! Funny that but would never play a machine that had the number 4 on it nor hit a button with 4 on it... I am so glad to be away from those heartless machines!

Mona in day 60 ... technologically fine at this point in time...!
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Springhope17 » Tue Dec 19, 2017 3:36 pm

Just wanted to check in today is 109 GF

I had an appointment with my counsellor today it went really well working on trying to understand and control my emotions so I can beat my gambling urges. I must say I really am learning alot from these sessions.

I'm trying to use all the tools available to me to beat this horrible addiction!

I have been having a few urges with the extra money that is needed around Christmas time I just remind myself NO i dont do that anymore and its never worked in the past! As well as once i start i cant stop! All the usual!

On a positive note I am excited about Christmas!!!!
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Mona58 » Tue Dec 19, 2017 6:41 pm

Congrats on 109 days!

It is great that you are getting to learn about your emotions.

Well done on resisting those urges

More power to you! Stay strong!
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Springhope17 » Tue Dec 26, 2017 1:32 pm

Today should day 116 GF but its NOT!
I only made it to day 113 and then I gambled!
I have been so angry and frustrated with myself! It was only a very small slip up in the big scheme of my gambling addiction! But still enough for me to so disappointed in myself! I really thought I would never ever gamble again!
The situation was my partner, a couple of friends and myself were head to the cricket any early Xmas present for my partner. We parked in at Crown and had a drink as we were a couple of hours early! The others were going to have a quick play at the pokies I said no worries but I wont play. As time went by I was hitting the stupid buttons hoping for a feature or a jackpot! I put $140 dollars in! My partner lost about $400! Even tho I would usually lose about $1000 per session and $140 isnt bad for me! Its how I felt while I was there playing and the disappointment afterwards! It really effected my mood and brought me down over Christmas (which is my fav time of year)!

I read a quote on Instragram before that read "Take a deep breath. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all over again". So that is my mantra right now!

Hope everyone had a better Christmas !

3 days GF :(
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby Mona58 » Tue Dec 26, 2017 3:33 pm

Oh Springhope.

I am sorry. You were put into a precarious situation. Still you had maintained an element of control with limiting what you blew. l read some post about a lapse and relapse. I guess this is a lapse... But ohh l Can only imagine how you feel.

My Christmas day was good... not as good as I had hope because of an incident at stepmother s and a huge urge slammed right into me tossed me about abit but happy to say l surfed through it..

I guess you'll know next time to be stronger if you get into that position again. Cannot you count 115 days plus 1 lapse ... No I suppose that would not do.

So pleased you are honest about it and came back. More power to you!

Mona in day 73 GF
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Re: 100 day challenge.. What feels like my last hope

Postby DFP » Tue Dec 26, 2017 9:39 pm

Hi springhope

Totally agree with your assessment - clearly disappointed but you did retain some control, and limited losses. AND you don't want to play again which is a massive change. So celebrate your success in coming so far, and keep going with added determination. In my opinion, this is the nature of it - the urges will always come, and our aim is to control them. We will always be working on control.
All the best, and please keep posting your progress.
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