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Day one...

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Day one...

Postby selymm00 » Sat Jul 22, 2017 6:01 pm


I am new to this... This is pretty much the first time I am seeking help for my addiction. I guess I'll use this time to explain a little bit about whats brought me here...

I am 30 years old, and have been gambling since I was approximately 18. My earliest memory of gambling was of me losing $5 in the pokies at my local pub. I remember the feeling of how bad it was to lose so vividly. I did not enjoy the experience.

However, after that, my friends and I started going more often, and $5 turned into $10, $20, etc. Then we started visiting the casinos and taking $60, $100, $200, and so it progressed... I now currently lose (on average) about $500/$600 a week

2 years ago, a friend of mine (also a co-worker) took her own life. Since then, I have noticed my gambling getting worse and worse. I am very self aware by nature, so I have literally witnessed this change in myself, and I can almost definitely say its due to an inability to cope with her death / a method of escapism. Even though i recognise this, I have never reached out to anyone to discuss it, and how it's impacted my gambling.

I guess what I'm looking for on here is support, friendship, comradery from others going through something similar. Anyway, this is day 1, and I am committed to giving "quitting" a real shot. I don't want to let gambling control my life.
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Re: Day one...

Postby pamela » Sun Jul 23, 2017 9:41 am

Hello and welcome.support and help is certainly what you get here..recognising a problem is the first step,doing something about it is the second.Stopping doesnt come easily to everyone but if you want it bad enough it will happen.keep strong and good luck
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Re: Day one...

Postby Jerry (facilitator) » Sun Jul 23, 2017 3:10 pm

Hi selymm00,

It sounds like your friends death hit you pretty hard. If you are using gambling to try to escape dealing with that then maybe you could consider grief counselling?
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